I have ****** up multiple chances to be with this girl,
and I’ve wanted nothing more but to be with her, and whenever we come close to having something amazing, I clam up and try to push her away. It’s happened 4 times. I don’t want there to be a fifth. I know I can be ultimately happy, and I’ve always wanted committment, but for some reason now I don’t want it. But I want her. She’s leaving in August for Maryland, and I want to make the most of what we have now. She is so striking in more ways than one. I feel almost inadequete.
But I feel almost as the temtptations around me don’t want me to be with her. I’m going to ignore everything. I’m going to try this. I want to try this. I need to try this.
I deserve her, and she deserves me.
Am I afraid of loving her?
I definitely think I am.
This could possibly be a new beginning.
Time to change my ways.
I need some pot, and some spoon time
and our late night talks passing intellectuality back and forth.
This is what I needed, I hope someone will read this and take something from it.
Just typing this has helped me.
I needed to get it out.
I’m almost in love :D
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