A not so bright future
I’m twenty years old, after loosing my job I was kicked out of home and have been living with my boyfriend of over a year. He lives with his sister, she is a nice person, but she needs us to pay rent because she cannot afford to look after us herself. So I pay a hundred a week. I only get two hundred a fortnight from centelink.
My boyfriend recently got a job, it pays roughly three hundred a week. He uses it to pay his share of the rent(it’s a hundred for him too) plus other bills he has. He has a lot. A loan, flexirent for a laptop he got. His phone bill. Now he also needs to pay for rego and new tires for his car. I never ask him for money because I know he can’t spare it.
I’ve been unemployed for over a year, gone through job agencies, applied for countless places. I’ve been rejected by every job I have gone for. I took a first aid course and pathology course so I could get a career in that, but no one will hire me there either. I don’t own a drivers licence, Everytime I have the money and time to do it some new bill comes up I have to help my boyfriend pay.
I can’t take it anymore. Living completely dependant on others, never having any money to spend on myself. Watching as both myself and my boyfriend begin sinking into debt. Most of my youth I contemplated suicide. Not even sure how I got through it then, but I’m not sure if I can get through it now. Things just haven’t gotten better.
I try talking to my boyfriend about how worried I am, he tells me not to think about it, he believes he has it under control, that as the man he should support me anyway. I hate it, I don’t want to be supported I want to finally move out into our own home, pay my own bills, have a good stable job. I just don’t see it on the horizon, like my happily ever after got lost somewhere and all I have left is a sad little drama with no real end.
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