My girlfriend of almost 3 years has just admitted to abusing her prescription drug Adderall.
We just moved in together almost 4 hours away from our respective families but she has friends out here and I don’t. When we first started seeing each other I told her that I won’t date anybody that does drugs or abuses drugs (like alcohol, prescription drugs, etc.) She was aware of this fact and, as she told me recently, she didn’t think that what she was doing was bad. She swears she isn’t addicted and told me that her and her mom abuse Adderall to get things accomplished like clean the house together. Her prescription is for 15mg twice a day (30mg a day) but that she will go through a 30 day (60 pills) supply in 3 or 4 days (leaving me to believe she’s taking up to 20 pills in one day).
I feel like she cheated on me for years because she knew I had conditions on this relationship before it started. I was willing to give her a second chance as long as she sought out help. However, when I see her I don’t like her. I can’t trust her at all. I don’t want to sleep in the same bed with her let alone the same house. I’m starting to get hyper-paranoid that shes doing things and trying to hide it even though I have no proof shes doing anything wrong.
Am I wrong to feel this way? Should I try to make this work with her or pack up and get the heck out of the relationship? Like I said we have been together for almost 3 years and I hate that I only found out about this just the other day. She did tell me she wanted to get help for this, but I’m afraid she told me that just because she knew that it’s what I wanted to hear.
Any and all help is appreciated. I feel torn between my heart(stay) and my gut(get out now!).
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