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I’m having yet another mental break down

Between my new course, unemployment, being two weeks away from homelessness, I’m breaking. I have so much stress in me and no where to throw it. It’s getting worse every day. If I don’t have anything to do for even an hour I get extremely stressed and guilty, like I’m letting everyone down, that I’m lazy, pathetic. Useless.

If I see someone do a household chore I get guilty like I should have done it before they did, like they are now angry that they have had to do it. So I go and do as many other chores as possible. Then repeat the process as soon as someone does another. I go handing out resumes in town, then have panic attacks before I can really approach someone, half the time running away. I apply online and over the phone as much as possible to make up for the places I avoided in person.

My boyfriend doesn’t know what to do with me anymore. He tells me I need to try harder and really put myself out there for work. I just break down and cry. I’m scared so much now. Always afraid of the people I think are judging me, wishing I would go away.

So here I am now, after another fight with my boyfriend, not knowing how to deal with myself. Afraid and crying. Again.

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Zirbel offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years ago (1 hour, 26 minutes after post)

You should see a psychotherapist, my dear! He could help you to pick up pace.

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dmvacho offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 2 years ago (1 hour, 34 minutes after post)

Sounds like you’re feeling incredibly isolated, and scared of disappointing everyone, and as a result you’re very unhappy in your own skin. The reality is you are in YOUR life and you only get the one. Face yourself in a mirror and realize whether you’re lying in a gutter or on a beach that you are breathing and unique and no one else is or can be you. Every moment that passes is yours alone to savor. Forget what others may think of you because in the end it doesn’t matter at all; it’s YOUR life to live, just the one go-round. I hope you find a way to accept yourself. PS - no matter how cruddy things are looking they WILL improve but it might be twisty getting there. Learn to love breathing and everything else takes care of itself. Take care.

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randomchatsmith offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Unknown Location | 2 years ago (2 hours, 23 minutes after post)

I wish you strength. [Your profile name is very well chosen.]

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❤Phoenix Reins❤ offline Verified User (2 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years ago (3 hours, 52 minutes after post)

It’s a horrible place you are in and bound to knock yourself confidence, but hey you are not any less than a person because you are unemployed! At least you are out there trying! By the laws of probability if you keep trying something is bound to turn up - just be strong like i know you are and dont give up. See a career counsellor to get your resume in good shape and get some advice on job hunting. Google job hunting and resumes too. Also be sure to give yourself a break when things are getting to stressful. Go for long walks for example. Treat yourself to a movie. Remember things will get better - you just need a little patience :) I was unemployed for a year - I know how you feel - but it does get better dont give up hope :)

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