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People seeing your self harm marks.
This is going to be long ok, i just need to get it all out :)
Basically, as you can probably tell, i self harm. for reasons which i’m not comfortable sharing with the world.
Anyway, i’m always covering up. I wear long sleeves all the time, bracelets and plasters to make sure that in ever situation, i’m covered.
But, on the odd occasion, i get caught out.
And this happened a couple of days ago…
It was exam week all week last week. Every day i had exams, sometimes for the whole day. And because the weather here in London recently has been quite hot, the hall in which we have to do the exams is hot. hotter that outside ‘cos it has about two hundred people in. Anyway, as it was so hot and i imagined that everybody would be staring at their work and concentrating on their exam, i rolled me sleeves up to cool myself down.
I only did this in two of my exams, i had like seven in total. And it was the last two exams of the week because i had gone through all the others SWEATING and not being able to concentrate properly and i guess i just had enough.
I’n the first exam that rolled my sleeves up, i didn’t think anyone noticed. I only had them up for about a third of the exam aswell. And because it was an option subject (not a subject that everyone does) every one was pretty spaced out.
In the second exam i had them up though, i was sitting at the front. So i assumed that no other pupil would see, and as far as i know, they didn’t. But stupid me, i forgot about the people observing the exam (You know the people that walk around and make sure you’re not cheating) Anyway, 3 of the ladies kept looking at me and walking next to me and looking down at me. I was a bit confused until on of the ladies came up to me and said ‘What happened to your arm?’ I was just thinking ‘CRAAAAP!’ and started going bright red and just said ‘Oh nothing’ then rolled me sleeves down. the woman smiled at me and stroked me arm. Which makes me cringe every time i think of it. She obviously knew that they were self harm cuts.
Well, if i that was bad enough, yesterday, my friend inboxed me on Facebook saying how i must be wanting attention if im showing my arms off. I was very confused and she said ‘two people who sat close to you in the exam asked me if you self harm because you had your sleeves up and they saw your arm. I told them they were cat scratches but seriously if you don’t want people to see, why did you have your sleeves up?’ Anyway, i explained all to her but im seriously worried that a rumor will start going round and more people will suspect i cut. The two people are like, popular girls. and im just a quite girl so obviously they will believe them. they already told one other person as soon as the exam was finished. What should i do to make them not be suspicious of me and what should i say if they ask me??? LOL this was some long thing, sorry :)
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