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crystalsandsand

Al-anon.

Has any one here been to a meeting?
I went for the first time last week and I’m still reeling.. I’ve never spoken from my heart before. It’s always been my head.
I didn’t even know what was hidden inside me until it came to my turn and it all came blurting out.
I can’t explain it, I just feel..
I feel like I’m standing on the ledge of a ship looking down at the waves of the ocean. It’s scary and it’s deep and it’s dangerous. Or so it looks from here.. so why am I preparing to jump?
The boat is safe, I’ve been there my whole life. But something deep inside me.. just wants to jump. Because I’m sick of the **** boat. It’s not going anywhere, it’s confining, it’s boring..
I want real life. I want the ocean.. maybe it’s great in there. Maybe I can swim somewhere better.

I don’t know if I’m making sense.. I don’t know how to explain anything I’m feeling. I just feel like I’m on the verge of discovering life, discovering who I truely am.
I finally see that I can get past all this confusion shrouding me..
And it feels wonderful.

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Glitch 14 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (9 minutes after post)

Al-anon can be a good experience and group to go to. I’m glad to hear your opening up a bit about things. It takes a while, but the healing is worth it. Just keep it up, and awesome analogies btw!!! Good luck, and god bless : )

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c 15 8 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (11 minutes after post)

I loved reading this

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mindhealer 47 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (18 minutes after post)

The boat is safe, I’ve been there my whole life. But something deep inside me.. just wants to jump. Because I’m sick of the **** boat. It’s not going anywhere, it’s confining, it’s boring..

This reminds me of how the great Persian poet Hafiz speaks of poetry and love as being life rafts and the big religions as being the great ships. He was deeply involved with both, and that’s just what your imagery reminded me of.

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TylerJaden24 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (47 minutes after post)

Wow cool. I feel the same way. I’m so sick of the same boring **** every day. I just want to close my eyes, jump into the unknown and never look back.

crystalsandsand 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (1 hour, 23 minutes after post)

Thanks for the good luck glitch, and I glad you enjoyed it c15 :)

Crystalvision I may look him up.. it’s been a while since I’ve read some good poetry.

Tyler.. it’s not as scary as it seems. I’m liking the unknown right now. Because what’s the point of only sticking with what you know?
Nothing changes that way, nothing improves.

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Anonymous #
1 year, 10 months ago (1 hour, 49 minutes after post)

Sounds like an amazing first step.
I’m envious.
Keep going, and don’t look back.

TylerJaden24 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (1 hour, 54 minutes after post)

crystalwaters wrote:
Tyler.. it’s not as scary as it seems. I’m liking the unknown right now. Because what’s the point of only sticking with what you know?
Nothing changes that way, nothing improves.

So true. But I still think it’s pretty scary lol. Exciting but scary. Today I did something new I’ve never done before. Lol.. It left me with some mixed emotions I’m trying to work through. xD

Rosabella 9 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (2 hours, 53 minutes after post)

Great post.

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