Has any one here been to a meeting?
I went for the first time last week and I’m still reeling.. I’ve never spoken from my heart before. It’s always been my head.
I didn’t even know what was hidden inside me until it came to my turn and it all came blurting out.
I can’t explain it, I just feel..
I feel like I’m standing on the ledge of a ship looking down at the waves of the ocean. It’s scary and it’s deep and it’s dangerous. Or so it looks from here.. so why am I preparing to jump?
The boat is safe, I’ve been there my whole life. But something deep inside me.. just wants to jump. Because I’m sick of the **** boat. It’s not going anywhere, it’s confining, it’s boring..
I want real life. I want the ocean.. maybe it’s great in there. Maybe I can swim somewhere better.
I don’t know if I’m making sense.. I don’t know how to explain anything I’m feeling. I just feel like I’m on the verge of discovering life, discovering who I truely am.
I finally see that I can get past all this confusion shrouding me..
And it feels wonderful.
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