Do I need therapy?
I don’t even know where to begin. I went through a lot of changes this year. I went into my 1st year of high school expecting I’d do just find with the hard classes (not). I ended up dropping my honers and math class. My goal before that was to become an engineer. I got so depressed once I decided to switch classes. The whole fall and winter is a blur to me cuz I was so sad. I hate math now. I have no clue what classes I want to take next year. I lied to my friends about I guy I had met. I made him entirely up on my own. I said we did naughty things like drug and sex and other random crap. I’ve never even kissed a boy. I lied about other **** too just at random. One random day I sat in a pool and cried my eyes out.
Now I’m fighting with my good friends about everything over the stupidest **** and I feel they deserve it. My 16th b-day just passed and I did nothing. I slept on the couch that night. I couldn’t stand being in my room. I felt I deserved nothing so I did nothing on my b-day. I think I’m 40lbs over weight. I also have been having this reoccurring thought to shave my head because I hate my hair or some other reason. My step grandma just passed and ppl flew out for her funeral and I had to stay home alone. I feel no pain for my grandma. I feel very low motivated to do anything. I flick the bean daily and afterwards feel horrible. I like the thought of being raped or rough contact with a boy. I think its cuz I want to feel loved or have some interaction with a boy. For awhile I thought I was bi. I’m not sure about my sexuality. I dated a gay guy to cover up the fact he was gay for him. We were besties before that and now we dont even talk. When I’m stressed I think I did things like in the past like my making my appendix burst and other **** to get out of school. I used every excuse to get out of school. I’m just so over whelmed with all of this. I am moving aug. 20th and I want a fresh start. So that is why I am asking do I need therapy. I need to know if I have a serious problem before I move so I can get help.
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