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i cant even find words.

the only one i can think of is… anorexic. anorexic anorexic anorexic. the word circles round my head repeatedly. i’m certain i’m not anorexic… it’s just a bad habbit and when i’m back to six stone, i’ll stop. when i get the guy i’ll stop. when he calls me beautiful, i’ll stop. i’m dying inside. i have this knotted, hot, frustrated feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat. i need ot cry but the tears just wont come anymore. i’m a living cliche! the girl that no one notices, starving herslef because she has no self esteem left. it’s all rotted away, bit by bit, small pieces of me decaying with every ‘eeew nah i meant her mate was fit man… she’s angin!’ and ‘you know you really need to tone up.’ ‘oh you’ve put weight on.’ and every ‘wow you need to do some sit ups.’ i’m hopelessly in love with queen bee’s boyfriend, who knows about my issues with food, and he just sits and listens to me rant, sometimes almost allows me to cry in front of him if i only swallowed my pride. he’s sweet, funny and would do anything for those he loves… it just seems he loves me… just not in that way and it hurts. it hurts not being the pretty one, it hurts knowing the guys all fancy your friends and overlook you, it hurts that i’m doing this to myself but cant stop myself and i am terrified that i’ll never get out of this horrible spiders web filled with heartbreak and lies! i’ve given in,i’m accepting the fact i’m anorexic, im accepting that i will never be the pretty and he’ll never be mine. i cant do anything about it, i’m stuck here, i may as well get comfortable…

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Anonymous #
1 year, 10 months ago (9 minutes after post)

If you’re friends with all the pretty girls, there’s a fair chance you’re “one” of the pretty girls.

But that’s niether here nor there. Have you considered talking about this spiral with someone that may actually be able to help you. It’s never to late or in your case too early to decide you want a different sort of life. You can choose to seek out help so you don’t have to be constantly plagued by these feelings.

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Zirbel offline Verified User (2 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (9 minutes after post)

First, boost your self-esteem!

“How to increase your self-esteem”:
http://www.mind.org.uk/help/diagnoses…

“Six Behaviors that Increase Self-Esteem”:
http://www.changeforgood.com/articles…

“Boost your self-image with these 5 steps”:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/self…

“Helping Someone with Low Self Esteem”:
http://www.mynichearticle.com/self-es…
 
Next, change your attitude!

Have you ever heard about “Positive Thinking”?
It’s an attitude which can change your life to a more satisfied side.

“Start The Day With Positive Thinking”:
http://allthingsmamma.com/2010/01/sta…

Some other exercises in “Positive Thinking”:
· http://www.squidoo.com/brightside
· http://www.wethechange.com/7-effectiv…

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jamespeterapli offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (17 minutes after post)

listen, chances are youd be better looking if you put some weight ON! stop starving yourself to look good immediatly! there is nothing worse looking than an overly skinny woman. most people are more interested in you personality! why dont you try askin that guy you like to go out with you, not on a date, and start spending more time with him. u never know but maybe, maybe he’ll like you more just for being you!

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Always griffin offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 10 months ago (47 minutes after post)

Sending you a Giant Cyber Hug.
Feeling down on myself today

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Anonymous #
1 year, 10 months ago (1 hour, 29 minutes after post)

I’m sure your beautiful :) I’m way too skinny and I hate it! I wish I could gain weight!!

If you are anorexic, you could develop serious medical conditions because you are depriving your body from energy (calories) and the nutrients found in food. Talk with a trusted adult (your parents, doctor, school teacher, etc.) about your image problems.

Set up a healthy eating and exercising plan. A healthy, happy average or overweight woman is much more attractive than a sickly, depressed underweight girl. Treat your body well with food, activity, and compliments! In no time you not only will feel more beautiful, other people will see just how beautiful you really are! :)

A trick that helped me with my image problems was: every time you look in a mirror say “I am beautiful. I love my (body part) because (reason).” [ex: “I am beautiful. I love my green eyes, because they are warm and friendly and the same color as freshly mowed grass.”] Every single time you look at a mirror complement yourself and a different part of your body. :)

Once I started feeling more beautiful, I became more confident. I started talking to people more and so I was noticed more. I no longer felt like the “ugly duckling” in my group of friends. Instead, I felt just as confident and beautiful as they were.

You aren’t ugly and you definitely don’t need to starve yourself to be beautiful. Being beautiful is about FEELING beautiful! Which is why models, movie stars, etc. all come in different shapes and sizes.

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