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Borderline personality disorder.

hi, long time no see. I feel lost, empty… I’ve been self analyzing again and I’ve convinced myself I may have Borderline personality disorder. I was hoping someone here might be able to convince me to tell someone here about it.
I’ve been using these as sources…
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhea...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderli...
http://personality-tests.squarespace....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iraGmA...

I’ll start listing some thoughts now…

Abandonment in childhood, would losing all your friends (most moved away, at the time i though it was me) and being left to fend for myself in kindergarten count?

I used to go off the handle a lot, not so much now but would that be seen as frequent displays of inappropriate anger

“Impulsiveness with money, substance abuse, sexual relationships”… yep, kinda and yep.

I see my self as really “Intolerance of being alone”, and yet i long to be accepted and to have friends who like me and invite me to party or just say “hay wana see this new movie…”

Fear of being abandoned…….. ya =(

In the past I’ve wanted to end it so badly… never got the guts to do it though. also pick at my shoulders without even noticing.

Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. would painting a self portrait of a silhouette mean something there? or just the fact that i can never figure out what i want…

Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment… ok, so this week i was in my little spot where no one could find me (NOT). i told the teacher why i was up there, to avoid everyone. he then suggested i sit in one of the class rooms, i turned him down saying that would make me feel like the censer of attention in that they would be making exceptions for me, that i just wanted them to leave me alone and such was the point of hiding there… he was unsure about how to move on as “i am sending mixed signals, your being anti-social while wanting to be social”, i soon went home and slept the rest of the day as it was better than being awake…

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STEEL offline Verified User (4 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (12 minutes after post)

oh, i wonder why this got kicked off the front page

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

sometimes there are key words that filter posts off the first page. it’s possible that you have a disorder, and it’s possible that this is just something that people go through when they have hard lives. i’d advise against labeling yourself as anything until you see a doctor. some people believe they need to have some kind of psychosis to see a doctor and receive help, but you don’t. i’d recommend seeing a psychologist and telling them what you’ve posted here and see what they think in their professional opinion.

when seeking treatment, i wouldn’t recommend medication except as a last resort.

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Pink Freud offline Verified User (5 years, 3 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 44 #
Spokane, WA, US | 1 year, 9 months ago (1 hour, 34 minutes after post)

I’ve un-adulted this post for ya.

Anyway, I, at one point, was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and when I asked my therapist about the diagnosis she said that we all, technically, have a touch of a personality disorder it is just a matter of degrees and whether or not it is getting in the way of us functioning in life. She then went on to say to me that she did not think that BPD was a problem for me but, more or less, a label that the hospital gave me as they didn’t know what else could be wrong with me.

So, in conclusion, I ask “do you feel that your borderline personality disorder is getting in the way of you functioning in your day-to-day life?” If so, then it is all together likely that you have a diagnosis of BPD and should be seeing a therapist and psychiatrist for your condition.

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (13 hours, 13 minutes after post)

In my opinion, you don’t need a label unless it helps you to understand what’s going on in your head. If you already understand it, then the label adds nothing. I agree with Ozy that you should see a psychologist. And Puck’s question is poignant. Mostly I think you just need a couple of good friends.

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Spokane, WA, US | 1 year, 9 months ago (14 hours, 19 minutes after post)

Sans Unleashed wrote:
In my opinion, you don’t need a label unless it helps you to understand what’s going on in your head. If you already understand it, then the label adds nothing. I agree with Ozy that you should see a psychologist. And Puck’s question is poignant. Mostly I think you just need a couple of good friends.

Thanks, Sans. :)

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 9 months ago (14 hours, 38 minutes after post)

Look at the recommended treatments, see if you like the sound of them.

Some docs tried to fit me with some diagnosis, but never felt right. Looking back it was due to not being any one particular issue, but lots of them. Batshitfuckingloco was how one friend described it. I think that unless its actual mental imbalance on a physical level, then the therapies are the same. And if you aren’t able to face something, there’s a good reason.

So take care of yourself, get around good people who give a ****, and start to listen to your own heart

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Borderline personality disorder.
hi, long time no see. I feel lost, empty… I’ve been self analyzing again and I’ve convinced myself I may have Borderline personality disorder. I was hoping someone here might be able to convince me to tell someone here about it.
I’ve been using these as sources…
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhea...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderli...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iraGmA...
I’ll start listing some thoughts now…

Abandonment in childhood, would losing all your friends (most moved away, at the time i though it was me) and being left to fend for myself in kindergarten count?

I used to go off the handle a lot, not so much now but would that be seen as frequent displays of inappropriate anger

“Impulsiveness with money, substance abuse, sexual relationships”… yep, kinda and yep.

I see my self as really “Intolerance of being alone”, and yet i long to be accepted and to have friends who like me and invite me to party or just say “hay wana see this new movie…”

Fear of being abandoned…….. ya =(

In the past I’ve wanted to end it so badly… never got the guts to do it though. also pick at my shoulders without even noticing.

Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. would painting a self portrait of a silhouette mean something there? or just the fact that i can never figure out what i want…

Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment… ok, so this week i was in my little spot where no one could find me (NOT). i told the teacher why i was up there, to avoid everyone. he then suggested i sit in one of the class rooms, i turned him down saying that would make me feel like the censer of attention in that they would be making exceptions for me, that i just wanted them to leave me alone and such was the point of hiding there… he was unsure about how to move on as “i am sending mixed signals, your being anti-social while wanting to be social”, i soon went home and slept the rest of the day as it was better than being awake…

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