Borderline personality disorder.
hi, long time no see. I feel lost, empty… I’ve been self analyzing again and I’ve convinced myself I may have Borderline personality disorder. I was hoping someone here might be able to convince me to tell someone here about it.
I’ve been using these as sources…
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhea...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderli...
http://personality-tests.squarespace....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iraGmA...
I’ll start listing some thoughts now…
Abandonment in childhood, would losing all your friends (most moved away, at the time i though it was me) and being left to fend for myself in kindergarten count?
I used to go off the handle a lot, not so much now but would that be seen as frequent displays of inappropriate anger
“Impulsiveness with money, substance abuse, sexual relationships”… yep, kinda and yep.
I see my self as really “Intolerance of being alone”, and yet i long to be accepted and to have friends who like me and invite me to party or just say “hay wana see this new movie…”
Fear of being abandoned…….. ya =(
In the past I’ve wanted to end it so badly… never got the guts to do it though. also pick at my shoulders without even noticing.
Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. would painting a self portrait of a silhouette mean something there? or just the fact that i can never figure out what i want…
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment… ok, so this week i was in my little spot where no one could find me (NOT). i told the teacher why i was up there, to avoid everyone. he then suggested i sit in one of the class rooms, i turned him down saying that would make me feel like the censer of attention in that they would be making exceptions for me, that i just wanted them to leave me alone and such was the point of hiding there… he was unsure about how to move on as “i am sending mixed signals, your being anti-social while wanting to be social”, i soon went home and slept the rest of the day as it was better than being awake…
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