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i was always a gd person a nice man if ya will up untill

i hit 25 26 i had a masive mental break down and started taking drugs class A i became a drugaddict and hurt a lot of people i was no longer strong enugh to to support them like i always had dun i was mentaly tierdand i systematicly distroid my life and hurt all thows around me as the riples of what i had becom started to flow threw my life i have lost every thing i hold close my mum my son and daughter my partner my friends when i asked for help all they saw was the drug they no longer saw me im not sure if i could see me any more i have moved and started again but i feel like my life is built on one lie after a nuther how do i tell people what i have dun without them just seeing the drug it is a tar i can not wash off i am lost and alone no longer knowing who or what i am i am clean now and have been for a long time how do you tell people i can not hide it for ever my little one will oneday come and ask thows Q i dread to hear because i dont know how to reply i sit at night and think of what i will say but leaves a blaank in my minde some days i can blame the world for what it did to me othertimes i blame me and hope and pray i can rediem my soul thankyou for reading parden my spelling

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babacup offline Verified User (5 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 7 months ago (14 minutes after post)

Congradulations on getting off the drugs. I know it is hard for people to see past the drugs and see the real you, but in time, they will see you are staying clean and moving forward with your life. The trust can start to build back slowly.

As for tellin your kids, you just need to be truethful with them. My father is an alcholic and was not around much when I was growing up. He is a very good loving person. I was alway able to see that in him, even when he was drunk and acting like a fool. Now he has been clean for quite a few years, and we have a great relationship. So just know all is not lost with your children.

I think you need to not let your mind sit and dwell on the past and the pain you caused. It will not help you. You need forgive yourself for your past mistakes, that way you can move forward and live a happy life.

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