I am something of a lonely person.
I’ve lived all over the place, and the past few years have been particularly transient. I changed primary residence four times in the past year, and completely changed my entire career path, as well as having to redefine myself because of it. It’s left me in a weird place that very few people ever visit, where I have a degree, I’m pursuing another completely unrelated degree without having ever much used the first, it’s going to probably end up taking me three or four more years of college to get through this, and all the while I don’t quite fit in with any group around me.
Which is alright, I’m used to not being quite like the people around me. I don’t know if there actually is no-one else out there with my experiences and attitudes, but I certainly can’t find many of them. I finally, for one of the first if not the first time, have a single friend who I actually feel I can discuss just about anything with, but even that friendship has tensions because he’s probably leaving the country in about a year, and he’s friends with one of my ex girlfriends (who I have no problems with, but I do prefer to leave the past in the past).
I also have no outlet for my need for touch. I like to cuddle, I like to be loving, I like to sit around at midnight chatting about whatever crosses my mind. The little joys of relationships are something I’ve learned to love and miss when I’m single, which tends to be for months - or sometimes over a year - at a time. It isn’t so much that I need a relationship to be a happy person, I have interests, activities, and goals that keep
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