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I cried this morning .

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I was on my way to work today, and for the first time in years I had a soul piercing cry, one that shook the very foundation of my being. I used to cry a lot, I don’t like to cry anymore. I’ve hardened myself over the years to crying, I (even though I know it’s not true) believe it’s a weakness within me, and it was. So now when I cry I know something is really wrong. Anyway, I heard two songs on the way to work today. The first one was this one “Adam’s Song” by Blink 182. http://www.najical.com/blink182/05ene... It made me think of JoJo, and I really started crying. Like I said, I’ve cried more recently, but it was like I hadn’t cried in years. I’m even welling up now, just thinking about it.

Then I listened to another favorite song of mine, one that is slightly more positive. Dream Theater’s “A Change Of Seasons” http://www.darklyrics.com/lyrics/drea...
I don’t really know why I am posting this, I need to get it out I guess. I’ve never really felt this attached to someone online, and I am seriously wrecked over it. I’m getting sick, I’m loosing sleep. I don’t know if this is to tell all of you, the second song is more true, and you need to live your life out no matter how bad it gets, or if I just need some friends to tell me everythings gonna be ok. Either way, I haven’t been this sad in a long time, and like I said. I don’t know. Post whatever, don’t post anything. Whatever.

I guess I am just lost.

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Sugar: Whip Cream An offline Verified User (6 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 6 years, 2 months ago (4 minutes after post)

hey, i am sry you feel so low today.. if you need to talk i am always here i like to lisen and help the best i can…

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (8 minutes after post)

I dont even know what to talk about. It’s just eating away at me what could be. I know I shouldn’t worry, it solves nothing, but I can’t help it. She’s my friend. And a great person, it’s really tearing me apart. I’m having to keep form crying at work . . .

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Sugar: Whip Cream An offline Verified User (6 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 6 years, 2 months ago (11 minutes after post)

i know we are all worried about her even my self you guys on here are better friends to me then some on my own friends here…well i will taslk later with you .. class is over

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (13 minutes after post)

Take it easy.

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Anonymous #
6 years, 2 months ago (32 minutes after post)

Hey Blake, I just read your post & I think your episode of letting your emotions show is healthy. Why do we as a society think that if we cry because of sympathy or caring about someone we are weak. I think the opposite is true. Those who can cry over a sad situation are the strongest, because we have come to the realization that were all interconnected in a way & have feelings of hurt right along with the others who are hurting. I admit, when I was younger I cried when I saw old yeller, and was ashamed then, but now I could bawl in front of people over the movie & not care who sees. You are strong….Live strong.

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (38 minutes after post)

I know I’m not weak because I cry. I cry because I am weak. Society hasn’t forced this opinion on me, I have forced it on myself. I know releasing your emotions is healthy. I just don’t like to cry anymore. I don’t care what other people think, it makes me feel weak. Although I do cry from time to time, I try not to, too much, And this time it was a cry unlike one I have had since high school.

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cathysplash offline Verified User (6 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Inverness, V3, GB | 6 years, 2 months ago (47 minutes after post)

Thanks for that! :o) … actually maybe I’ll go and watch a sad movie, a cry always helps - you keep blubbing honey, it’s good for the soul! (I’ve not cried in ages, maybe thats why I’m mental!!!)

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

I’m glad everyone get’s the point.

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Well, I’m glad someone gets it. Gets me. Thanks FHR, I’m just . . . so lost . . .

If she never shows up again, this isn’t the first time I’ve lost a friend . . .

It’s not easy.

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

I haven’t hurt this bad in a long time. A long, long time.

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

I haven’t cried today for no reason. And I didn’t just break down today. I’ve been slowly breaking down since friday, and GAH! I just wanna slam my head into the keyboard. I don’t know where to turn with this s***ty feeling. I’m so calm and cool and collected, and I handle everything else so well.

I’m really shaken up by this, and I need . . . something.

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windmills offline Verified User (6 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 years, 2 months ago (2 hours, 35 minutes after post)

Blakeslee, I do the exact same thing sometimes when I’m in my car. Its like when I hear a really good song that touches my heart, something comes over me that I cannot describe. I see where your coming from man and just wanted to let you know that your not alone.

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (2 hours, 38 minutes after post)

Thanks canadays, just made me well up a bit . . .

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windmills offline Verified User (6 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 years, 2 months ago (2 hours, 39 minutes after post)

Anytime man.

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cathysplash offline Verified User (6 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Inverness, V3, GB | 6 years, 2 months ago (2 hours, 44 minutes after post)

What happened to Jo and who is she? Sorry - I’m new here! Anyway, whatever happened to her, I’m sorry it hit you so bad but crying is definately the way to go, if you feel stressed and sad and lost, cry - I don’t know why it helps, but it does, a lot! I heard something on the news last week about a hormone that is released in “emotional” tears but not in other tears (like when you cut an onion) and they think that is why crying makes us feel better - but they just don’t know why or what the hormone does yet. The reason they said that is because there is a club in London where people go to cry, apparently it releases loads of tension and is better for you than going to a club where you drink and dance! Anyway, whether or not it means you’re weak, if you feel you need to do it, follow your instincts, your body knows you better than stupid rules imposed upon us by society!

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (2 hours, 49 minutes after post)

We dont know cath, she was helping someone who was sucking her dry of her emotion, and left feeling horrible that said person made her feel abandoned. She’s just disappeared. As of last monday. 1 week, 3 days.

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benten offline Verified User (6 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Olympia, WA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (3 hours after post)

Hey, I’m really sorry you’re having such a hard time. I hope she’s ok, too. You seem to be a really wise person and compassionate, too.

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cathysplash offline Verified User (6 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Inverness, V3, GB | 6 years, 2 months ago (3 hours, 4 minutes after post)

Maybe she just though “sod it” and went on holiday? Or maybe her pc broke down? … a little more likely than she just died or decided to abandon you! And if she did decide to abandon you (and I’m sure she didn’t, betcha it’s just her pc broke) then maybe she no longer needs your support because she’s standing up for herself and feels better! It’s only been a few days, worry after a month!
I still stand by what I said about crying, but I think you’re worrying unnecessarily, and possibly you might have something else in your life causing you stress which you are trying to cover with your concern for Jo? Take care x

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Ocelot offline Verified User (6 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Ventura, CA, US | 6 years, 2 months ago (3 hours, 4 minutes after post)

Yeah, there’s a million possible things that coulda happened. I know. And everything is probably fine. But, I just cant help but wonder. And worry . . .

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An Undisclosed Location | 6 years, 2 months ago (9 hours, 40 minutes after post)

Hi Blakeslee.
I just read this post. Hey you, I know how you were feeling. I just want you to know I’m with you in your heart and care. You helped me recently to my post, and it meant alot to me. I send you a big hug.
Jonetta

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Anonymous #
6 years, 2 months ago (11 hours, 45 minutes after post)

God has chosen the weak of the world to bring to nought the things that are strong. God considers us the strongest So I say again…You are not weak, regardless of what you think. You have realised that crying is an emotion that shows true character, and love for the hurting people in the world. I mean I am crying inside when I hear of all the evil that happens on this earth. But then I am able to overcome these feelings because we as Christians know that sufferiing only continues for a very brief time, even if it feels like an eternity. When our physical bodies can no longer function, and we die, then we will have a new spiritual body that is perfect, and live for eternity with our God, who by the way does consider his true followers sons & daughters heirs to his kingdom. If I was just typing this without proof, I would wonder is that really the truth, but as I stated in a prior post, I have witnessed HIS intervention in a miracle that if it had been captured on video, would be one of the most inspiring proofs that God does love us, and he will reward those who are written in the Book Of Life.

There is a catch though, only those who have asked Jesus to be their Saviour, and follow his commandments as given the the New Testament Gospels will cheat the second death, and inherit eternal life.

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