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I have way too much going on in my life.
I can’t handle the stresses of it all. I love the guy I’m with, I don’t feel he loves me the same he used to… I’m afraid of him lying to me, because he has lied to me about something very serious. . . life changing. . .
I’ve been struggling with thoughts of suicide here and there, and I’m on an antidepressent that helps a lot. Just. . . I don’t know anymore.
I don’t know what I want. I love his family. . . I love them dearly. I want to be with him, but I’m almost afraid to, because of his ability to lie to me. He didn’t tell me the truth until I almost left him.
My ex, I left him for this new guy, and he’s been sweet to me, when he has no reason to. I hurt him, really badly. I don’t even know how he’s able to talk to me still. A part of me feels like I still love him. God forbid. . . x.x I don’t know what to do.
I gave up my life once for a man, and I may have to do it again. . . I’m soooo afraid of getting hurt. I’m so afraid of hurting others. I look for comfort within others, and that’s a huge downfall for me. All of these things are.
I’ve been raped, molested, mentally and physically abused.
I just want to do something for myself for once. I want to be happy for once, and I don’t know what to do. I cry and beg God for help, and for a sign. I think I’m too afraid to look for them. . .
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