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I feel deeply depressed and full of regret - I have
a friend (girl) who I always suspected she liked me initially but I was always too shy to do anything with. Years down the line, I thought I’d let her know my feelings. However she said she doesn’t feel the same and now she’s back with her ex and I’ve made things really awkward between us. I’ve since avoided her for the last 6 months as I can’t face the embarrassment and cringe really badly. She knows this, and has even asked me if I’m avoiding her which I admitted after trying to hide the fact.
As a result, I’m stricken with deep regret on why I didn’t react when I had the chance and sometimes I think to myself, “maybe I can turn her around if I just met her”, but the rational side of me knows this is wishful thinking.
So 6 months down the line and I still can’t stop thinking about her, or the regret of not telling her before. I seem to get reminded of her all of the time with the smallest of things, seeing girls with long brown hair, seeing girls just called Rachel, and getting drunk just seems to make me more vulnerable to thinking about her. I know it seems shallow, but I don’t know if I can still be friends with her in the knowledge that she’s with someone else - it just hurts me too much.
I’ve considered seeing a hypnotist to get rid of my sadness, I just don’t know if these feelings will ever wane and I hate feeling like this. Any words of help would be greatly appreciated.
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