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I’m going insane.

I’m worried and anxious and everything in between. I never claimed my Pure Romance stuff to Unemployment or Bridge Card. What if they find out? What if I get into a lot of trouble? I didn’t really make any money selling Pure Romance and wasn’t really sure how to “claim” it. What do I do now? Just wait? I don’t like feeling like this. I am an honest person and I wouldn’t want to have to repay the government back for everything because of my ignorance. I didn’t make money and I didn’t know what to say about it as an “income” considering it really wasn’t. Everything is all messed up with it anyway. I thought I kept really good track of things, but I feel like I have to keep re-doing everything a million times. I’m just so worried and don’t know if I should call them and ask to have a meeting so I can talk to them about it. Because not only do I not know how or what you would consider Pure Romance, but I actually forgot bout it in the beginning. I didn’t remember until I was no longer doing it. I kept buying more things so I could stay “active” just in case someone wanted a party because many people said they did. But no one ever did, so I did it for no reason and I could’ve been done with this a long time ago. I learned a lesson, I can’t sell things like this (Arbone, Avon, etc.). But other than learning that lesson, I wish I would have never started it. I really enjoyed doing the parties. It was a ton of fun! But it seemed like it just got harder and harder to get people to have parties. Not only that but I kept finding out more and more things about being in Pure Romance that I didn’t know before and if I had, I wouldn’t have done it in the first place. They don’t tell you enough when you consider doing this and invest so much into it. You just end up finding things out the hard way and wasting a lot of time, money, and obtaining way too much stress. That is unless you know a thousand ladies and have your own office, and are extremely motivated. Which I have none of those. I’m just worried that some how Pure Romance is going to make me want to hate my life. I put way too much money and time in to it. And now I worry that I may get audited or something or have to pay fines or even go to jail because I didn’t know what to do with it. The last real party I had was in June 2011. How lame is that? I just now became inactive in December 2011. I tried having my own party in August, but only my mom, sister, and one friend showed up. So basically we just hung out and I sold them a few things. I couldn’t really consider it a party because only 3 people were there and if I was going to someone else’s house, I would need at least 4-5 people there. Anyway, the point is that I am at a loss of ideas on what to do about this whole situation. I need help. I need advice. I don’t know who to ask all these questions to. It sucks. I don’t want to ask my case worker because I’m afraid I wouldn’t get ahold of her anyway and if I did I’m afraid she wouldn’t understand and I wouldn’t be able to explain it to her. Not that she’d care to here my story anyhow. Plus there’s just that overwhelming feeling that something bad is going to come of this.
On another situation: Just got a letter from Unemployment people’s and after they had determined that I could receive unemployment benefits, they are now saying that Firefly has work for me and I HAVE TO apply there or I could lose my benefits. If they offer me a job and I turn it down I have to come up with a legitimate reason. Not that I know what they’d accept. Who knows if the truth would be enough. And the truth is I HATE working there. Mostly because the managers are miserable and childish! They are disrespective and don’t care about anything but themselves. I got in trouble when I ate there with my family and we had a bad experience. It really didn’t and still doesn’t make any sense what happened, but it just made me want to leave that much more. If I had to tell the whole story in order to still obtain benefits and not have to accept work there I would. I am more than willing to explain the entire story and just show how ridiculous they are there. I still can’t believe that they are putting me through this in the first place. I just need to hurry up and find a job that I like so I don’t have to worry or deal with this any more. I’d rather not get benefits if it meant that I have to go through all of this trouble. Why would I want to return there? The management was not professional and I got a better opportunity. I would still quit there if the same situation had come up. I didn’t realize that I would be laid off that early (2 months early!). But I was going to just take some time off. I wouldn’t need unemployment if I would have worked until the time I was told I was going to. Either way, I hate the government. This is just becoming a pain in my *** and I just want to give up again. I’m so tired of fighting the world. And I fear it will never end. If that is the case (and I’m sure it is) I don’t want to live here any more. I want to be somewhere else. Maybe I should just become as insane as I feel and think sometimes and I’d just be able to live in a looney bin. Um so yeah. I think I have anxiety disorder and my depression meds don’t work for that.

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