I’m sorry that you’re heartbroken. I completely understand what you’re going through. My live-in boyfriend of 4 years just left me about a month ago, so I have probably gone through whatever you feel right now.
You have to believe in the bottom of your heart that you’ll be okay. Not right now, because it absolutely stinks right now. But someday. Mourn the loss of your relationship. And then, try to accept that it’s over. Thinking that he may come back is the biggest hurdle to your recovery.
You won’t feel like doing anything, eating anything. But put one foot in front of the other. There were times when I wanted to die. But then I told myself, if I wake up tomorrow morning, then I was meant to wake up. And therefore, I have to get through today. Oh, each day sucked. I didn’t see the point of doing anything. But hang in there… slowly, eventually… one day, it wasn’t quite as bad as the last one.
Lean on others. You may feel that you’re a burden, but your friends love you. I couldn’t believe how much better it made me feel to hear from one of my friends, or to have a meal with them. It’s a great way to turn the focus away from your broken relationship; instead of hashing out your breakup in front of them, ask and care about what is going on in their lives.
Eventually, you’re going to tap into your anger. I actually love this part because I could feel myself getting stronger. Listen to angry breakup songs. Channel that energy and redecorate your apartment. Put all his stuff in boxes, out of sight. Go to Target or Ikea (or whatever you have, where you live) and buy some new bedding, or a new picture, or some new cushions. You figure, if you’re going to spend a lot of time at home moping, you might as well make it comfortable, right?
I’ve ranted on long enough. I wish you the best of luck; this is such a difficult time.