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I’m the nanny who seduced the husband.
I’m scared and alone and I feel like a complete loose tramp.
I’m a 19 year old woman. I came to North America to work as a caregiver and hopefully see the country. The family who hired me is quite affluent. The husband is an engineer with a big company who does lots of business in the Middle East. He’s mid 40’s and his wife is mid 30’s. They have 3 children; 5,3 & 2. The boy is the oldest and there are two younger girls. The husband is balding and a bit over weight but is the sweetest guy. He travels all the time - but when he’s home, he treats his kids like gold.
His wife is about 10 years younger than him & we have never gotten along. I try but there has always been some tension between us. When he’s around, she is usually a complete ***** - to him, me and the kids. When he’s gone, she can actually be tolerable. For the most part, when he’s away, she just drives his Mercedes to the mall & goes shopping.
This whole huge mess I’m in started when I was in my room in the basement & I overheard one of their fights. She was accusing him of leering at me and undressing me with his eyes. As far as I know, he has never done this. But the accusation made me so angry & I guess vindictive. How could this cow say these things?!? I’ve never been disrespectful but at the same time, she doesn’t pay me that much and she’s not nice to me.
I don’t know why I decided to start doing this but I started flirting with him. The result was immediate, electric and naughty. I was playing with a guy one year younger than my Dad. AAHHHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I think it was a way for me to get back at his wife but at the time it didn’t seem real. It was fun and harmless. That all changed last Christmas when his wife went out to a Christmas party with friends. It was in early December just before I went home for Christmas (My parents had bought me a plane ticket home) I knew he was watching TV by the fire & I knew the kids were asleep. I put on something suggestive but not slutty. (Tight red Santa PJ’s; no bra or panties) I went upstairs & asked if I watched TV with him. I said I couldn’t sleep - which was a lie. Eventually, I put my head on his chest. I could feel his heart racing. You can guess where I put my hand & then for some reason, I went down on him.
I hate going down on guys and to this day, I still don’t know what possessed me. But at the time, I felt so good and so in control. As you can probably guess, this quickly descended into sex. I wanted it and it was fun. But it was messed up. Before he entered me, he asked me if I was clean and if I was on the pill. I said yes to both and he came inside me. I’m clean but I lied about the pill part - and spent the next month panicking - but that’s not even the worst part!!!
After we were done he cried. He told me he had been faithful to his wife for the last 14 years. He has been propositioned all over the world and now he has broken his marital vows in the marital bed. He apologised for seducing me and asked me to forgive him. I felt like such a complete and empty *****. I seduced him; it wasn’t the other way around. I still feel this way and its almost March. I worry she knows and I’m scared that she will fire and deport me if she finds out. How would I explain that to my family?!!??
I thought things were tense before now but this is ridiculous? He won’t look at me. I’m sure she suspects something. How do I fix this? Can I fix this?
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