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I am disgustingly ugly.
Every day I spend hours thinking about how fat and ugly I am. This wouldn’t be so bad, as you can still hold down a job as an ugly person and have hobbies (I do reading, martial arts, volunteer at a museum, stuff like that) but I’ve always wanted a family and a husband. Being ugly means that I’ll never have that. I’ll always be alone.
I just can’t stop wanting that. I’d do anything to be attractive. I’d do anything to not be fat and ugly. I can’t afford plastic surgery. I wear make-up, I work out (but can’t lose weight… seriously, my trainers and doctors are stumped), I try to wear nice clothes and NOTHING helps. I’ve never had a single guy who found me physically attractive. Guys date me only out of desperation and then dump me when they find someone hotter. (They have directly told me this.) Guys at bars moo and oink at me as I walk by. Male friends tell me I have such a nice “personality” and then complain how hot girls don’t like them. People think I am either ugly, or invisible.
I know I should give up, but something inside won’t let me.
I either want to be pretty, or give up and accept being single forever. How do I force myself to give up?
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