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Well I think you have a good support group with your friends. I think you should lean on them as they know and empathize with what you are going through. Maybe a fresh start will do wonders for you somewhere new. I think the issues with school and psychiatry are what are causing you the most torment and the smaller issues like getting annoyed about what film or sweets your parents pick are because of those larger issues.

You say you get pissed when they pick a movie you don’t like because they aren’t thinking of everyone as a group. That doesn’t make sense to me. It doesn’t sound like you are thinking of everyone as a group because you think they should all watch a movie that YOU like. Is your opinion supposed to be group opinion?

I know when you go in to see the psychiatrist, it is not easy to get it all out and put into words to what you are going through. I suggest you write it all and then give it to your psychiatrist to read and then let him ask you questions and just be as honest as you can.

It sounds like your parents are trying to get help for you. Which is really good.

I have a son who has a lot of “issues” and has not been diagnosed with anything. He sees a therapist who is helping him learned some coping skills to help him not get angry over things that should not make you upset. To learn to accept people “teachers” and not be so judgmental of them. To try and see things from another persons point of view and understand that everything is not always as it seems. To let go of past hurts and forgive people so you do not let it bother you any more.

The thing is, a therapist can not fix every thing for you, they are there to help you figure out what is wrong and help you learn to deal with it. To help you make it better. So you have to be willing to open up and work with them. They can not help if are not open to working with them.

Your parents can not fix everything for you. They can support you and get you the help you need, which it sounds like they are trying to do, but they not fix it.

What you can do work the people that are trying to help you. Help them understand what goes on in your thoughts. Listen to the suggestions they make. Ask them “what can I do to help calm myself down when I start feeling to angry?”

Do you you like your psychiatrist? It is important that you feel comfortable enought to open up to them. Remember their job is to help you, not judge you. So you can tell them anything.

If you and only you want to enjoy life,then you must sort out how you’ve come to be
such a mean, miserable, selfish, lack of patience pissa##,can ya remember when you did have joy in your life? I hope you can realize that this life is short on this wonderful planet, and you are a spec of dust in this world.Its obvious you are a very smart,and your mind goes faster than most folks.I have the same curse, and most of the time I feel I am surrounded by idiots,but in turn I am the idiot.I will say if theres drugs in your world you have no chance of finding peace within yourself.Do you know you are the greatest blessing in your familys life,don’t take that from them,as they truly want the best for you, and thats why they worry so much.Try to slow down ,know whats important,set your goals and work towards making them reality, loose the losers, and begin your journey and always share your smile, as it really will make folks happy to see it.Good Luck and may the force be with you.

Wow. you sound like me when I was a teenager. I remember feeling like everyone around me was so normal but only I was the crazy one.
Your emotions are crazy because you are growing up and the drama of your changing emotions are not something you can handle yet. In changing from a little girl with little girl emotions, big girl emotions are very hard.

First, keep a diary and write down all that you are going through. It helps to get it all on paper. Maybe take up art or music, a creative way to express all these crazy feelings you are going through. When you look back on these days, you might remember them as your most creative period because you felt the most strongly.
If you are annoyed and angry at those around you, find yourself a quiet place to meditate and think about what it is that irritates you. Is it something inside you, or external?

You have to find peace inside yourself. Try yoga, prayer, meditation, nature. You will find that it helps brings stillness inside yourself when you feel insane. Also start reading books with great depth and meaning to them, as they will open up new worlds to you.

It might be too that you are feeling like you are still being treated like a kid when inside you know you feel that you are an adult. I think one of the hardest part people have is looking at kids and treating them with the same respect and honesty that they would for each other. Take up a job and start gaining some responsibility, even if it is volunteer work. It will feel incredible to have a sense of empowerment in choosing the direction of your life, rather than it being chosen for you.

Yes.. There is something wrong with you. Mostly, your self esteem.

1.) Being a preteen, your hormones are out of control. All teens go through this. It is what causes the issues such as the movie example, depression.

2.) Bipolar - This would mean that you go into very deep depressions to the point of not even wanting to get out of bed for days to high energy happy moods where you talk a lot, stay up for days at a time and are overly energetic. This does not sound like what you have unless it is mild.

ADD or ADHD - This sounds more like something you might have. You might have a hard time concentrating on things and do things inappropriately because your mind races. This is very common in students today.

3.) Often those who have Autism are diagnosed with ADD or ADHD. The irritation to noise and touch are signs of Autism. The example you gave at the dinner table might be a symptom if it hurt. It does not sound like you have autism.

Just my opinion but I think that you are a normal teenager with a lot wrong. Hormones, depression, low self esteem and possibly ADHD or ADD. There are things you can do to help yourself until the doctors diagnose you. First, you need to STOP in your tracks when becoming moody. Remind yourself that these are hormones. Don’t let them control you. Instead decide that you are going to take control. Make the change immediately and apologize to anyone who you offended. Being a teen, you will deal with pride issues. It is normal because you have to constantly compete and prove yourself to everyone. It is ok to admit to your parents that your hormones got control of you. This will help them understand what you are going through. They will probably be able to relate to you as they think back to their youth years but your mom in particular as a woman will be able to relate to it because women deal with hormones all they lives from pre-teen to menopause. It is my opinion that teachers are overwhelmed with the amount of students these days and are not meeting the needs of the kids. Often they behave this way because they are insecure about their jobs and capabilities. Your friends, parents and doctor are probably the people you should continue to confide in. They are the people you are closest to and who have your best interest in mind. Your doctor is getting paid and your friends and family love you. Just be calm and honest with them. Learn to use the words “I am so sorry”. They will respect you for it and forgive you quickly.

When I was a kid, if I acted like you describe (getting mad at everything.) I got a whack on the butt and told to smarten up and deal with it! I grew up to be a sane productive adult that needs no medication to deal with life. Now a person is diagnosed with any number of acronyms and told they need counseling and medication and that they can’t help it.

I’m not trying to minimize mental health issues etc. Its just that it seems to be reaching epidemic proportions and I wonder if its all really necessary. I think we all need to learn to focus a little less on what makes me feel good and spend a little more time doing what makes others feel good. Life will never cater to all your desires so learn to deal with it productively.

I’m sorry if this is not helpful. I’m simply stating my own thoughts.

SingItForTheWorld wrote:
Some body tell me what I’m supposed to do? I want to tell my Psychiatrist all of this, but when I want to say it I don’t have the confidence. What do I do?

Reply to a few of the comments on this post, get a few more replies, repeat, print it out, share it with your psychiatrist.

You start by roughly writing all your feelings down on a piece of paper,go through it see what parts are affecting you the most, then rewrite it& give it to your psychiatrist.
The psychiatrist should then make a evaluation on your general wellbeing.

Try going to a Sudbury School if that is possible. It’s not a special ed school, just a differently organized type of school. it helped some people I know.