what made me type in the google search engine…
help. As i sit here with in bed watching my son sleep worring about the future, tears come to my eyes…i feel like Jacob in the bible searching for a blessing and just at war with everybody. Ive been homeless, job less…but if you were to see me in person you would never know it. (thank you jesus) im living back home with my parents, helps me with shelter for me and my son. I swear they look at me with such dissapointment. My 2 brothers followed my dad footsteps and became a marine. I on the other hand was the (and still am) free spirited, let my heart make decsions, and have my OWN dream…and the courage to follow it. Let me tell you …being a single mom its really hard…yea another one of those sad single mom stories…lol. well im not really laughing…sometimes i find myself clueless on what to do. I wish i knew which direction to take …sum times i just want to run!! take me and my son and just GO AND LIVE! but im so scared. i dont want to put my son in any unknown situations. my parents man…they make me wanna do bad things to myself at times…they dont know how much they hurt me…i really feel i have to take a risk ..for a better situation…but im so scared..i feel so alone. I pray i pray i pray. i know he is listening..i believe he can and will…but LORD when? I feel like a failure when my father even looks at me. i nver like him to see me dressed down so he wont think even worse of me. If i run where do we go? me and my son? Lord help me find you.
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