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help. As i sit here with in bed watching my son sleep worring about the future, tears come to my eyes…i feel like Jacob in the bible searching for a blessing and just at war with everybody. Ive been homeless, job less…but if you were to see me in person you would never know it. (thank you jesus) im living back home with my parents, helps me with shelter for me and my son. I swear they look at me with such dissapointment. My 2 brothers followed my dad footsteps and became a marine. I on the other hand was the (and still am) free spirited, let my heart make decsions, and have my OWN dream…and the courage to follow it. Let me tell you …being a single mom its really hard…yea another one of those sad single mom stories…lol. well im not really laughing…sometimes i find myself clueless on what to do. I wish i knew which direction to take …sum times i just want to run!! take me and my son and just GO AND LIVE! but im so scared. i dont want to put my son in any unknown situations. my parents man…they make me wanna do bad things to myself at times…they dont know how much they hurt me…i really feel i have to take a risk ..for a better situation…but im so scared..i feel so alone. I pray i pray i pray. i know he is listening..i believe he can and will…but LORD when? I feel like a failure when my father even looks at me. i nver like him to see me dressed down so he wont think even worse of me. If i run where do we go? me and my son? Lord help me find you.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (35 minutes after post)

If you read your Bible, you will see that Jacob got himself into some pretty precarious situations, but God always delivered him. His brother, Esau, whom he cheated out of his birthright, greeted him as a true brother. You will remember that Abraham left everything behind to do what God told him to do. Moses was 80 years old when God called on him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. Remember the Prophet Elijah and how Jezebel had him on the run for a while? Remember what happened to Jezebel? What you have to remember is this: God did not bring you this far to just abandon you.

Do not compare yourself to your brothers. Your brothers couldn’t get pregnant now, could they? ;-) Of course not. You had an encounter with a guy who wasn’t dependable. Even Jesus Christ chose a guy who wasn’t dependable–Judas Iscariot. If Jesus could be betrayed by someone, how much easier is it for someone to betray US?

You need a job, and it’s very tough to get one these days. Ask your dad, mom, friends and other family members to help you with the job search.

And tell your parents that you are very grateful for their help for you and your son, and that you are sorry things didn’t work out with your son’s father. Your father just wants to make sure you learned your lesson.

You will be happiest when you are out on your own again. And speaking of Jacob and all of that, I hope you are asking God for help in all of this, and that you are going to a church for the “spiritual component” in your life.

Don’t beat yourself up. Forgive yourself. We all get done wrong by other people. What you have to do now is make a life for yourself and your son.

Never give up . . . because God will never give up on you!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (51 minutes after post)

bless you, and thank you. im not going to give up on god. your right he has never gave up on me. i will try my best to show my parents my gratitude. Im asking my lord every day night, for help. i wish i had a church family i know i will eventually. i will get through this!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (11 hours, 48 minutes after post)

Trust in God, and do everything you can to align your life with the plan that was laid down for you before the foundations of this world were laid!

You will make it . . . and you will prosper!

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