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Ozy these are extremely beautiful thoughts. I just did recently what you did, reading old emails and I ended up crying too. I wish I could say with ease like you do, that everything is going to be allright.
I am going to start a journal. You inspired me. Thanks ozy.

I started a journal when I had depression. Like you, I think it was a way of not being alone; I had nobody to talk to about it so I wrote instead. Sometimes I look back at the old entries and it’s quite painful - I can feel everything I did back then - but then I, too, look at where I am now and feel that sense of pride for getting through things.

You MUST publish a few pages of your diary every day on Help.com! ;-)

I guess im not the only one that does that kind of thing then. Ive been writing some of my thoughts down on this site to preserve the state of mind that i have for future reference. Like TranquilTempest, i think i also did it out of depression and just wanting someone to tell me that everything was going to be alright.

But unlike ozy’s diary, mine hasnt really got the happy moments. I used to think they would never happen cause i felt that my future was so bleak that it almost just didnt exist. Even now i am really unsure about whether things are really going to become any better.

Someday i hope to become like your boyfriend ozy, to have helped someone else in dire need rise up. You have a great future ahead of you =]

Hey, thanks for sharing.

What if every story of your life was the tale of how there is triumph and light overcomes the darkness and good overcomes the evil? This was my basic intent in the years when every story I had was always “once upon a time they all lived happily ever after”. I get the impression that people don’t like such a message, and it is lacking in some of the middle chapters, but it was just a helpful attitude for me to have in considering what stories were worth telling about my life.

I feel the same way when I read my journal! Especially from when I was a kid and middle-schooler. That poor little girl! She was so FILLED with anger and loathing to the point she couldn’t contain it! She didn’t know why, either. It’s good to see, though, the transformation into a peaceful, happy person. And I’m glad I went through my hardest challenges as a kid and that I understand things well enough to not get so upset all the time.

I too have found inspiration in your story. It sounds like a really good idea to keep a journal to look back on as a reminder of all we go through.. I shall start mine today. I’ve been putting it off long enough.

I was in serious crisis once, several years ago. I had a friend, to whom I will forever be grateful for what she did for me, with whom I exchanged e-mails in trying to work through the boiling emotions and raging hurt that were bugging me.

We e-mailed back and forth for over a year. She was a constant source of encouragement and support.

I saved the e-mails. All of them. Then one day I found them all back on my computer, and I assembled them into a single Word document which was over 287 pages long. I wrote up a nice thank-you note and e-mailed the whole thing to this friend of mine.

It’s nice to have those memories.

you’re a beautiful person, wild ozy-in transition. I wish you lots of happiness and lots of wisdom. O… and fun, let’s not forget the fun.

:p

That was so beautiful :’)

I can relate to this so much. I used to be the quiet nobody kid with no friends. I even had suicidal thoughts at one point. Now I’m such a new person, I love it! I love my new self and my new life that I’ve had for the past year and that I know I’ll continue to have.

When I was 17 I began writing in a book (I’m still iffy about calling it a diary). My first entry went something along the lines of “what am I doing? This will probably be my first and last entry. I’ll look back on this in disgust towards my teenage angst.”
4 years on and I am still writing. The year after I began writing I had an incident where I became mentally ill, my diary captured a lot of that. My diary also captured my overcoming of depression and my changes in character after that.
Not only did I write, during my depression I also drew pictures of myself during periods of my life. Alarmingly, my low self-image is projected very clearly through these drawings.
I’m very glad I kept writing (now at 16,600 words).
It keeps track of all my musings, and experiences, but more importantly, I get to see myself change in a relatively short read. Like a time lapse on my most interesting years to date. Being able to look back in retrospect I can see patterns emerge in the way I handle problems which allow me to avoid making the same mistakes more than once.
Nice to hear someone else is doing a similar thing.
Just thought I’d share that :).
Also, you seem very perceptive and intuitive (read your most recent replies). Extremely fortunate characteristics to possess these days. Congrats.
Are you from Oz?