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Your whole life, is barly a tenth of how long it will be if you don’t end it now. Why would you be foolish to end it now with out seeing how the other 90% is going to shape up?

Please don’t give up. I promise you that 15 is the hardest age ever. You have a lot of new expectations and responsibilities. On top of that, it’s true what people say that your hormones are going crazy and affecting your emotions and brain in a way that they never have before.

My best advice is to invest all of your energy (positive and negative) into something–sports, music, a class, any passion that you may have. If you aren’t sure of what your “passion” is, NOW is the time to experiment with your hobbies and likes.

Imagine if you pick up a guitar now and practice for 3-4 years until college or after high school. You’ll be a formidable musician and maybe that will lead you to a passionate career, new friends, or a band! That’s just one example of how experimenting with something new can guide you to a new future and give you motivation in the present!

Do you have friends, family, or a teacher with whom you can talk? Coming here is a great first step in figuring out how to make a positive change in your life. Hang in there–you are on the right track!

I’m sorry you’re depressed, really, but you still can’t think your way out of it. Thinking of reasons to live might fool you for a while or play into some drama where you get to be happy, but those reasons can disappear as easily as they appeared, even if the reasons come in very solid human or situational forms. Forms dissolve, and yet depression sucks and suicidal feelings are the absolute worst. I highly recommend not getting down on yourself because of the suicidal thinking, but also you don’t have to identify with it. It’s like a curse to have to think or behave in ways that are against your best interests. And yet depression sucks and I also can understand and relate to how hard life can be. “Overcoming depression” should be very high on your list of priorities, or, how most others think of it, “pursuing happiness”. And your friend can occupy his own goal, but he’s not the reason for life or anything so profound except in a drama.

That’s just my opinion, I wish you luck and if you ever really want to know what I think about stuff you could ask me, I might have less superficial thoughts than these, who knows.

Here are how some other people beat depression:
http://www.43things.com/things/how_i_…

And here’s a support group with many resources if you look around a bit:
http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Depres…

I have accounts on both those sites and can recommend them as full of helpful and friendly people, like this place.

mindhealer wrote:
if you ever really want to know what I think about stuff you could ask me, I might have less superficial thoughts than these, who knows.

What motivation do you have for trying? Because I can’t find a reason that makes life worthwhile. I don’t like to be around people and I don’t care for hobbies.. The only thing that makes me get up in the morning is the thoughts that school will be over soon and I can just be alone.. but that is depressing also.

And I know that it is ridiculous to think so much of a person I don’t really know. I am disgusted by the fact that I care about his opinions.. but he honestly makes me feel not so alone.. and I like being able to talk with him despite how confusing it is.

This all sounds very pathetic…

Then how come I am ALWAYS like this.
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Because you are suffering clinical depression. You have a medical problem, and you need to see medical help.

Try visiting your local ICU, cemetery, and mental institution. And think how much you have to be thankful for.

Walking barefoot on the grass outside, and sitting and watching a flowing river also helps immensely.

And I know that it is ridiculous to think so much of a person I don’t really know. I am disgusted by the fact that I care about his opinions.. but he honestly makes me feel not so alone.. and I like being able to talk with him despite how confusing it is.
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Why? I made a friend last year online that made me happy all the way through. It ended badly and I’m sad about that, but I will never regret having had his friendship.

But is it worth talking to someone who could just stop coming on ..?

I have tried to be open with him, because he has bothered me so much ever since I told him about my depression.. but I started to talk to him about it and I suppose it was at a bad time because he said I was just complaining. The other time (very long ago) he said he was too busy to be bothered. I know he is trying to make up for that now but I can’t help but hold it against him. Anyways, I don’t want to whine to anyone.. I don’t want to be a bother, and I sure don’t want to tell him about all of this when it’s bothering me so much and be told he doesn’t care.. That would just be upsetting. But we have had some very close conversations and I really do value his friendship..

But is it worth talking to someone who could just stop coming on ..?
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Only you can answer that. My friend suddenly left without even saying goodbye -just told me I was a wonderful person, blocked me, and disappeared. It hurt like hell. Truth is, it still hurts. But, for me, it ws still worth it.

Anyone in the medical profession will tell you that those who ‘don’t want to be a bother’ are usually those who need help the very worst.

Anonymous wrote:
I’m fifteen.

Well, there’s your reason. Your life would be pretty pointless if you ended it now. If you keep trying and actually search for meaning and fight for something, then your life will get a meaning and you will know you lived for something. You never know when one day you will discover something you like, or something important, and add new meaning to your life.

Maybe you should look at Mindhealer’s “Life Purpose” post:
http://help.com/post/538233-life-purpose

I’m fifteen. I have lived my whole life alone and just now noticed how lonely I was

What is this ?

me being tired and stupid.