I understand how you feel,truly I do. Without going into too much detail,I have made many attempts at taking my life and have felt so lost and fated to lose my life by my own hands,in fact only a few nights ago I was going to hurt myself and some dufus on this site told me to go ahead and just do it,some help he was,NOT. Please see a professional like a therapist or psychiatrist,and see if talking things out will help. You may even benefit from an antidepressant. In my case I was found to be suffering from a mood disorder called bipolar 2. When you have this your mood can drastically shift from one moment to the next which at times makes me feel that I no longer want to live. You matter and although we have never met you matter to me and I want so very much for you to feel better. with a bit of hard work you can feel better. I know that you feel that you are a terrible person rit now,but that is just your mind playing tricks on you. say out loud to yourself,”I am a good person.”. “I have value.” “I matter.” Make a list of good and positive things about yourself. If you can’t think of any,use the ones I just gave you. When you feel depressed or down,it can be difficult to think of anything good about yourself. Please don’t give up. You matter to me and you matter to each person that cared enough to read your story and respond. There is a lot of bad in this world but on this site,I have found some of the best in humanity. Two young men in particular saved my life not long ago. One of them even went to the trouble of reading my old posts so he could understand what I’d been going through,and then he asked what country I was in and he looked up a bunch of phone numbers that could help me. I actually phoned one of the numbers after taking an overdose,and they saved my life. Please,if you feel like harming yourself go to an e.r. Or if you can’t do that call 911. If you have depression you can’t control your feelings. If you get help you might actually feel joy and work towards a happier life,but if you kill yourself you don’t get any other chances,DEAD iS FOREVER. You might think me a hypocrite,but when I feel my worst sometimes it is difficult to control my actions. remember that these are only feelings,they aren’t necessarily reality. At times,it can be difficult to dicern one from the other,but you can do it. I have good days and bad days,but I can tell you from my experiences that having a therapist that I can trust has been a godsend. I have been seeing him for 3 years and I can honestly say that I don’t know what I would do without him. He truly cares what happens to me and when I am feeling lower then low,he is always there for me and he always has words of wisdom or a funny story to help me. Please find yourself a therapist,I will even help you find one if you let me know what city you are in. Please accept this help,I don’t want you to follow in my footsteps and make the same mistakes I have made. I am here for you,please let me help. Step back and try to think about what I have said,and have the courage to get some help. as one of the people that helped me on this site told me,you are like a car and you just need a tune up. Please,if you are feeling like hurting yourself,please call 911. maybe you can take your pain and experiences and save somebody else’s life or at the very least you can help others by sharing your experiences,but for now just focus on existing. You can and will get through this. Please think about all I have said,you need to get a therapist or psychiatrist or minister that you can confide in,and possibly you need someone to prescribe medication for you. In any case,pleease let me know what you decide to do. I am here for you,and I of all people will not judge you. I will be waiting with anticipation to hear from you and I will be thinking good thoughts about you.
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