I can’t appreciate life in general, not because I am depressed or angry though.
I just can’t. I try hard! I do try!….I think I try, at least.
Recently I spoke with my best friend near the beach quite late at night. Out of nowhere, he started saying how wonderful the moon was that night. He mentioned how his senses would pick up the harmonious sounds of the waves and how his skin felt the soft caress of the wind.
He truly got me thinking. To me; the moon is but a star that hangs up there. A tree is …well, a big plant and the sea is just..water. My university is clean, but it IS just a big building made of stone and glass. My mother harshly disapproves of me saying that. She says I would see how wonderful it is, if I was going to an ugly school.
I know my university is clean, and I like it. I understand what an undesirable place looks like and I truly do feel at peace within the walls of my university. BUT I don’t find it beautiful…is it that hard to understand?
Those are just two recent examples of my everyday life. Often I have to quiet down on my thoughts about things in general because I know it will sound pretty weird…but doing such a thing on a daily basis..well…I’ll just say it is not desirable.
What is it I am not seeing in ‘things’..that others do see? Or is it they pretend to see? Or they think they see it? Is that something that can be taught?
Any suggestions….leads..or the like?
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