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I can’t help hitting my dog.
I love seeing that look on his face as he cowers from my hand or fist. In fact, something about it actually turns me on a little bit. I know that this is related to the fact that I was abused growing up and I know that it’s wrong, but I can’t help doing it and enjoying it. What do I do?
P.S. - I can’t give the dog up because it’s not actually mine, it’s my roommates. And I obviously can’t tell my roommate about this or he’d kill me.
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Go see a doctor. Hitting animals in itself is awful, but enjoying it is worse. You could move on to other things, like people.
If I went to a doctor, would they report me? Would I go to jail? I know I probably deserve it, but that doesn’t mean I’ll go willfully.
No. They can’t report you to the police unless you say you killed someone. Its all confidential.
If I were your roommate I would probably kill you, too. That is awful. YOU CAN help it. You are in control of your own body, so stop beating the dog.
I think maybe you should move out.
you were abused growing up.. remember how it felt? imagine the complete bewilderment the dog has. “what did I do wrong?”
I would very much like it if someone saw you doing that and decided to take a baseball bat to your head. **Squish**
Move out, get help.
If you were my roommate, I would hip throw you into the ground at speeds in exess of 80 kph unless you got help for yourself.
Seriousely, keep this up and its just a matter of time before somebody returns the favor to you, give it up or get hurt.
The fact that you were abused is no excuse. I was abused as a child and I would never do such a thing. Get ahold of your emotions before somebody gets ahold of your face.
You need mental help. Get the help you so desperately deserve and put an end to this before your problem escalates.
you are perpetuating a treatment you recieved earlier.
You need to have compassion for the dog.
Only you can break this cycle.
Getting mental help, is not a bad thing. You need someone to talk too and to help you through the things which has happened to you, and to help you stop this. Really, the only options you have is to get the help on which you need. But, if you are to afraid to do that now. You need to move out. I think both is really the best option. Go get the help you need, then you may need to distance yourself from the dog to prevent it from happening again. You do need to get the help, before you turn your hand on someone other than the dog. Even if you may not see it happening, it can.. you do not want the next being you strike to be a person, and what if you end up liking it? We do not want that to happen, right?
Do not be afraid to seek professional help. There is nothing shameful about it. It takes a brave, strong person so admit they have a problem.. and to do something about it.
Good Luck, and Wish You All of the Best!!!
This is plain sad.
Some people here are quick to jump the gun and do not understand or want to understand the nature of your problems so that people should simply stop commenting dumbfounded answers, but I know what your going through. Whenever you get the urge to do harm to the dog simply leave the room the dog is in. Whenever I get anxious and mad at nothing I dart strait to the gym or cook ore write and even draw. Find something that relieves your stress.
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