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I just need to vent

Well I’ve been struggling with serious anxiety issues for as long as I can remember. However I’ve seen no improvement or sign of it ending, even though I go to a therapist regularly. Drugs are my last option, the thought of being so unbalanced I need a pill just to act sane depresses me. So I try to avoid that.

My theory is that I haven’t actually been telling my therapist just how bad my anxiety gets sometimes, not intentionally I swear. Just as soon as I begin telling them what’s been going on I get chocked up, anxious, panicky. Immediately retreating into myself instead. “I’m doing ok, things aren’t too bad I guess, I’m managing ok.” These are typically what I say, not how I feel. I wonder if what I really need is just for someone to hold me while I cry and vent all my frustrations out. What I want so badly is for someone to hold me, comfort me. Don’t tell me I’ll be ok or suggest how to get better, just let me get all these hurtful damning thoughts off my chest. Let me cry until there’s nothing left.

I just want someone to listen for awhile, to understand how often I feel afraid. I want them to know the truth, so why can’t I do it? Why can’t I get past this chocked up feeling, this lump that wont let me speak.

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Savanna_ offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (9 minutes after post)

Because you fear opening up?

I don’t see a therapist but my friend had offered several times to listen to my troubles.. I just couldn’t do it. All I want to do is cry lol.. Though I’m sure it would be wasted tears.

So why don’t you want to open up?
Perhaps, if you cannot do this with a therapist, you can vent to a close friend?
or here, on help.com ?
I am going to be on for at least another hour or so, would you like to talk?

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (26 minutes after post)

You’re right, I do get scared of opening up. I’m not sure why though, it might be because there were times when I opened up to friends and there advice was pretty much- get over it. I tried talking to my partner about how stressed I’ve been with my new job. I have no intention of quitting or anything I just felt nervous about it all the time. He told me I need to pull it together and stop thinking negatively because he works too only longer hours. As if I wasn’t allowed to feel stressed. I understand where he’s right but it just ended up making me feel worse, like a cry baby.

That happens a lot, when I get stressed and anxious my internal voice just starts yelling at me, getting angry because I have no reason to feel upset. It sends me on a downward spiral of self hate and only ends with me feeling completely miserable and stressed.

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (51 minutes after post)

Yes, I understand the feeling. You feel like you shouldn’t be so upset because everyone you talk to either says you are overreacting or they just don’t care. You to have a rite to vent, I am sorry everyone has tried to put you down.

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