Today help: today has gone me to wishing I didn’t even bother getting out of bed. - Help.com

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Well, what happened?
What ever could make you feel so low?
But you know…I’m right there with ya…well…so to speak…:O

It starts mainly with my church. The pastor used to look out for me. but now it feels like he dropped me like a bad habit. As well as the mother of the church. The two ppl that had my trust the most. ANd when I need their guidance I cant’ seem to bring myself to ask. Today it just felt like a volunteeer camera man job. Just get in and out. no talking to ppl, etc. then when I get back home(house also owned by the pastor) and open the screen door….the glass from the top half falls and goes boom.

okei! wrote:
your bed cannot be your hiding place, forevah, you know?!

life will proceed, whether you get up or not! SO CHOOSE TO GET UP!!!

If I didn’t get up then the events that happened to me wouldn’t have happend.

May I suggest you get yourself a treat, a movie or a food you like. Watch a show on your computer if you can. Take a bath, wash your hair, say a prayer. These are the things that work for me.

Happy Coincidence wrote:
May I suggest you get yourself a treat, a movie or a food you like. Watch a show on your computer if you can. Take a bath, wash your hair, say a prayer. These are the things that work for me.

I’m bout to go get me a slurpee from the 7 eleven

okei! wrote:
your character cannot be essentially injured, except by your own acts. however, if you sinned, you can still confess and make amends. if you have NOT sinned, then no prob.

I’ve sinned. and I repent. Problem is that I take things way 2 personally and I keep doing things i’m not suppose to do or trying to force myself to go numb.

Me too, I screw up each day, its chaotic and I know when I leave to go to work there is a lot of potential for pain and embarassment. But you have to give yourself points for the courage to go on.

Happy Coincidence wrote:
Me too, I screw up each day, its chaotic and I know when I leave to go to work there is a lot of potential for pain and embarassment. But you have to give yourself points for the courage to go on.

courage isn’t what drives me

okei! wrote:
don’t take it too seriously, unless you’ve killed somebody! if you are not suppose to do it, then don’t! but then again, remind yourself the reason.

why go numb. without feelings, we mortals simply exist. with emotions, we live. cheer up. you are still alive and that suffice. nothing can be far more worst than death. but even that has a purpose.

No emotions=No pain. No Disapointment.

worked enough for me before I decided to trust.

okei! wrote:
my last point to you:

in love and trust don’t give your all
i repeat DON’T GIVE YOUR ALL
make it 50:50 to be fair
leave something FOR YOURSELF

OTHERWISE LIKE NOW, YOU’LL FEEL BLANKED
HELPLESSLY BLANKED!
but the question would be

how long will you allow yourself to feel empty? to be empty?
would you allow yourself to be consistently hurt by the person not worthy of your trust or love?
would you allow yourself to be affected by the insignificant?

think about it. and lastly, the name is okei! return the favor when i am chaotic and lunatic myself. ciao! =)

would be nice if i could actually control that.

Wow, you certainly make a lot of drama out of tiny things.

You need to recognize that your anxiety about being accepted by other people is driving you to this silliness.

Reach out to other people. Don’t expect other always to reach out to you. They have their own problems in life. Stop being so centred on yourself.

so nice being told what I already know and knowwing what im going throgh some1 considers silly…

This is exactly what Linuxya means. What does it matter if one person considers you or something you do/say silly? It’s what you make of it.

yea. well. easier said then done. take it however you want