Finally help: Hopeless.

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Hopeless.

When there is no hope left, what do you do? When it gets to the point where you don’t even want to be happy, you just want to stop being miserable. What do you do when you have hit that point where you realize that things aren’t getting better it’s all just barely starting to fall apart?
The future doesn’t have anything to offer me. I thought it was because of one mistake, but I was ruining my life before that.
I hit every statistic
Didn’t do well in school
did drugs
dropped out
didn’t complete college
arrested before 21
poor credit
in tons of debt
working a dead end job.
It finally occurred to me that things are not going to get better. It’s going to be the same mistakes repeated over and over until sooner or later I die. No matter what choice I make, the outcome is always the same.
Some say turn to God. Tried that, and honestly, if He was real, why would I turn to him now? After 23 years of nothing, why do I think it’d be any different? I’ve heard people say that you’re still alive, and that that in itself is a blessing. Not when being alive is the last thing you want.
You know what my favorite part of the day is? When I fall asleep, because there is always that possibility that I wont wake up. If God is real, and is a merciful, generous God, then he wouldn’t let me wake up. He wouldn’t think it is okay for his “child” to walk around feeling so miserable all the time.
What do you do when you’re only option left is suicide?

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TranquilTempest 10 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (28 minutes after post)

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Changing your life for the better isn’t easy. It takes time and a lot of hard work to make up for the things you did wrong, the choices you made that made life harder. But it is possible.

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Always griffin 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 30 minutes after post)

Been right there with you. I find i send most of my nights praying for God to just let me die. I am here for a reason, and so are you. Wish he’s bloody well tell me for what, don’t you? Talk to people here they are very help full

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randomchatsmith 5 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 50 minutes after post)

Wow. You do have more problems than one could handle… Please keep your faith. Please. I do not have the best words to comfort, but I have had God intervene many times and rescue me from stupid things I had done (or things that happened to me).

Please realize, you are being tested more than normal. And do not blame yourself for everything. Many choices are ours. But some aren’t exactly our own. I think I sound silly now, but do realize there is a God and He has turned lives completely around.

I hear testimony after testimony of people whose lives He has touched and I feel very happy for them and a bit wistful for myself. That I haven’t had such a drastic breakthrough as they did. But I am alive and breathing and that is good. Even when I still do silly things, if I can pick myself up, I will be fine.

“…for though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity.” Proverbs 24:16

Do note, the righteous fall. It does not say the sinners alone fall. It is a given. Note that too. Ok? Pick yourself up. with whatever you have. Whatever you can. Rise up even from the ashes.

I pray you have the strength. Take care.

Zirbel 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 12 minutes after post)

Don’t give up! Ask for help and support. Call a hotline and have a talk with people who will understand you!

“How To Avoid Committing Suicide”:
http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-Committi…

“What To Do If You Are In Suicidal Danger”:
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscente…

“Suicide is NOT a Selfish Act — It is an Act of Desperation by Someone in Intense Pain”:
http://www.suicide.org/suicide-is-not…

✖ Suicide Hotlines (USA, listed by states) ✖
http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlin…

✖ Suicide Hotlines (International · Over 60 countries outside USA) ✖
http://www.suicide.org/international-…

✖ International Suicide Prevention Wiki ✖
http://suicideprevention.wikia.com

Survivors of Suicide
http://www.survivorsofsuicide.com/

American Association of Suicidology
http://www.suicidology.org/home

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Always griffin 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (5 days, 3 hours after post)

close your eyes, deep breath,
God wants you to be strong, there are so many wonderful people here
to talk with.I was low,have depression, never did drugs, alcohol, whatever
i was on this site wondering reading people’s rants, when someone asked a question i could answer, i usually don’t know things but i did. It made me feel good
been here ever since have made many wonderful friends, Plus I started a prayer list which later turned into a book of help.com’ers. That’s what i do over 300 people in my book. That’s why I’m here. I don’t put people who do want to be.
I had one say she wasn’t a believer but thanked me for doing that. I felt good
Sorry i talk too much . Can i add you shout me your first name
stand close I’m sending you a Giant Cyber Hug :)

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