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The Wait.

I don’t have the luxury of waiting.
Waiting for Happy Times to come again.
To come again requires them to have been before.
Is it so wrong that I can simply wait no more?
I long to be loved, to be listened to.
Of these actions, I await a debut.
Long overdue. Wait is all I can do.

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Can anyone relate? I feel so lonely.
I’m a teenager but unlike most people who complain about being lonely, I actually am. I’ve been bullied pretty badly since I was 6, I’m now 15. My confidence has been drained slowly since the beginning, I’m now left with a negative confidence, if that’s even possible. I have to fight back tears just when my name is called out in class. I have 2 friends, but they’re exs so it’s a little awkward. Neither of them are great to talk to seriously. One is pretty cynical, the other is very naive to the world and their idea of a bad day is not getting what they wanted for dinner. Maybe that’s why I love her. Anyway, my other friends have all left me… I’m not sure why. They wouldn’t tell me. I don’t /think/ I did anything wrong… My family is all dead except for my parents, who are both disabled. One mentally, one physically. I get shouted at and put down daily and it’s been this way for 9 years. I’m coming to the end of my tether, I fear. With no one to talk to, no one I can trust and no one to be there with me when I cry, I feel very, very alone… All I can do is wait, but I’m fed up of waiting for something with no signs of appearing at all.