relationship help: I’m so freakin’ angry…..I know you’re - Help.com

Honestly I was glad to read this because I’ve been saddened by the number of unambitious directionless people who don’t work for anything (I even feel like one sometimes even though I’m in the paying for college all by myself with a bunch of jobs boat as well). I’m happy to hear the rant of someone with goals. Anyways, if you continue with college and make something of yourself, the military will probably find you important and be very willing to have you, they never run out of positions for people with random expertise. I’d recommend relaxing a little bit. Keep trying to get where you want, but enjoy the ride because it might take a long time. Good luck!

Here is the thing though…after all that hassle and mess, a year to just get in…..and the lack of jobs….I don’t even want it the same as I did….I do want to serve….but it’s not the same….I don’t know if I’d re-enlist and try again because when I finish college, I’m applying for the police department straight away. That’s a 25 year thing that I’ll probably see until the end. But I mean not even that….my fighting days are over to ensure my position in the department(no need for reckless injury), and my love life, no matter how pure I see things, is much to be desired…… in fact downright terrible. I haven’t had A girlfriend since December 19th 2010….the one in 2011 doesn’t count because I was a 2 day rebound when her gf(yes…gf) dumped her. She’s bi now so….she’s been on the fence but that doesn’t even count. It’s just SO aggravating to see everyone else have and do what you always wanted, but seems like you can never have no matter the effort, no matter the intention, no matter anything. It feels like God is showing me this as a slap in the face of my dreams, because I see NO merit in this at all….no life lesson to learn from watching everyone else I care about leave in some way or another for the things I always dreamed of. What possible merit does this kind of position hold for me? I see none whatsoever and I am so sick of being the hard-worker who always fails for some reason or another. When will things look up for me? When do “I” get a stroll down easy street for once? How many more people do I have to lose…?

There’s nothing wrong with carpentry or supply. And you wouldn’t have had to stay in those fields. I think you are a bit too demanding at the outset. No matter what you undertake, you have to start out small.

I’m in Afghanistan right now. And without those carpentry and supply guys, we’d be in a helluva mess.

I think you want to be the general or the CEO right away. That won’t happen. You have to be willing to work your way up–willing to pay your dues.

You might want to talk to that recruiter again!

No. I wasn’t allowed anything because they CLAIM I am colorblind which is a crock of s-word. I WOULD be stuck there and be unable to move they told me. I wasn’t offered infantry because the maps have different shades of lines(I can tell the difference….) same for Military Police, I must not have been mechanically inclined enough for an engineering position. They told me flatout there would be no other position for me, that was it. I’m sorry, but I refuse to settle when it comes to stuff like that. I mean they royally screwed my stuff up and refused to try it again. They took a year to get my paperwork and medical records straight, kept telling me they were out of date when they told me to bring it in(I did ON TOME but they didn’t get to it until weeks after), come time for the eye exams and whatnot, they claim from the bubble numbers I was blind as a bat, and they wouldn’t let me do a retest to prove I wasn’t. I can’t see the fairness in when my group did it and everyone else. We did it directly under a glared lamp at 4am, others did it was bright windows at 10am……what the eff sense is that? And yes, I CAN be demanding here, because I am not so demanding elsewhere, it was my future. I won’t do something I’ll regret if I know it won’t be something I life for years on end, especially if I can contract out here or get a part time job doing the same exact thing without signing my years away. I mean cmon. Also, when they told me supply, it wasnt the type you expect. They said I would be in a recruiters office stocking the uniforms and pens…..not out in the bases accounting for ammunition, weapons, stuff like that. I’d be stateside no matter what. This is my future, why am I going to screw it up if it won’t help me where I want to go later?