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I just cant live with myself.
Today started off well I went to go pick up a game I wanted and I met this girl at the cash register who was really cute and smart and we had a little chit chat. I wanted to ask her out but in my usually **** up fashion I was a coward and couldn’t muster up the balls to follow through. This is the story of my life constant missed opportunity to the point that I feel like a emotional wreck that women just sense it and want nothing to do with me. Add to the fact I cant hold down a job or find one and I one year from graduating college and after that I am just screwed for the real world. I try to listen to my family who keep telling all these positive traits I have but self centered *** can’t see what they are talking about. How can I have such a loving family and friends and yet still feel like a piece a ****. I want to believe what they say about me but it just wont click and its all my fault for not believing it. Love is out of my reach never had a girlfriend my entire life I try to not let other peoples fortune get to me but it just keep getting to me not hate for them but more hate for myself something that comes them easy just doesnt click for me. I just can’t see how a I can be blessed with all this love in my life yet still feel like a waste of space on earth. I’m a grown man in tears right now it has got me to this point. I dont know if this rant will help me I just maybe just this day maybe tomorrow will be better I just want honest answer from complete stranger as sensitive or straight foward. Maybe just want I need right now if you all can make something out of this jumbled emotional rant. I’m calmer right now so please be honest and I’ll take it all in and try to help my self.
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