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I am trapped.

I am 17 years old, and if you showed me someone 5 or 6 years ago with procrastination and depression I would have thought they were just being pathetic.

It is utterly pathetic, but I can no longer force myself to complete proper tasks, unless they are small and physical. A while ago I wrote a long list of things I would love to be able to do and even though i want it so bad it’s like I can’t even control my own willpower. I have lost confidence in everything and spend a lot of time silently thinking disturbing and depressing thoughts which I cannot get to go away. My life shouldn’t feel awful. The only bad thing is I don’t have as much money as everyone else around me, which actually has a huge affect when growing up on skills you develop and people you get to know. But I don’t understand where these problems have come from and they don’t feel right.

I don’t understand how this works. It has been a growing problem for the last 4 years, and I am tired of having to hide it from everyone. I want to find a way to stop these problems so that I can be happy, but I can’t do it alone, and I don’t know where to get help.

No-one I know personally can know about the problems I have, as human nature dictates a certain prejudice towards people who have these problems. I need someone, something or someway to recover that I can access, and then I can get my life back on track.

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11 months, 4 weeks ago (42 minutes after post)

i’m at the same place you are, can’t figure out why, struggle against it every day and try to push myself to interact, have a great time when I do, but then I come home to my own chaos, it’s in my head, but i just can’t let it have my heart … you’re not alone in your feelings, there’s a youth group around you somewhere that meets to discuss the very same things, maybe there’s a friend there you connect with,

Pyrobeatz 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

This sounds like you may have had a manic episode that has progressed over the last 4 years.
Alot of times it can slowly start to appear or happen in the split of a second when everything is going fine and out of nowhere you feel like the world is falling around you. I have a friend who deals with manic depression and bipolar disorder. I have a link if you’d like to look at it.

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Pyrobeatz 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 26 minutes after post)

Here’s the webpage: http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder…

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finchberry 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 28 minutes after post)

All I can say is, it gets better! I went through the same thing. Worst 6 years of my life, followed by a weird year and then the best 4 years of my life. It didn’t just happen - I had to want and pursue a better life and surround myself with people who were positive and encouraging and try my best not to bring them down and to learn all the things they could teach me about life. It took a long time and I didn’t even know what I was going to get out of it. All the empty parts of myself got filled in slowly and all the things I hated about myself became so much less important than the fun and the growing and the great friendships that I devoted myself to. Your discontent might just be the first step to a more fulfilling life. It really will get better! Just make a good choice when you have the chance to make a big decision for yourself.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (5 days, 1 hour after post)

try listening to happy music. get away from the emo ones. dont bite the emo fashion too cause if you do, you will start acting all so emo just to fit in then youre all EMO about your life and evrybody elses.

What youre going through is the same to almost teenager. Went through the same thing too like ages ago. I hated everyone and chronically depressed. Now I just laughed at how stupid I was.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL but SHORT. Dont waste it. Find ways to be happy or fulfilled.

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