suicide help: I don’t think I will make it, living a lie

andrew281

I don’t think I will make it, living a lie

I am very lonely, I dont even have fked up people to be with because the anxiety of being with others is overwhelming. I am tired of having to lie to others about my life, so that they can probably accept me. I am living a lie. At the moment, unemployed and looking. At times, I truly wish I could believe in something other than myself, but there is simply nothing, as there has always been. I feel really that im a plain observer of my closed ones lives, and that im doing unworthy things with my life. I want to end this, I feel like jumping off the balcony. I have no social support.

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I don’t think I will make it, living a lie

I am very lonely, I dont even have fked up people to be with because the anxiety of being with others is overwhelming. I am tired of having to lie to others about my life, so that they can probably accept me. I am living a lie. At the moment, unemployed and looking. At times, I truly wish I could believe in something other than myself, but there is simply nothing, as there has always been. I feel really that im a plain observer of my closed ones lives, and that im doing unworthy things with my life. I want to end this, I feel like jumping off the balcony.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

Here’s an exercise. Take everything you’ve just said and break it down into individual problems. Then, problem by problem, give a solution. Once you know what you have to do, then you can start searching how to do it.

Help me with: .

finchberry 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

Ending your problems by finding solutions to them is the courageous path. It doesn’t take any courage at all to give up.

Help me with: How can I help a slightly alcoholic friend through a really hard time?

DarkSnow 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (31 minutes after post)

How do you mean that you’re living a lie?

andrew281 wrote:
At times, I truly wish I could believe in something other than myself, but there is simply nothing, as there has always been.

Well, people are fallible. If you can only believe in yourself you are doomed to believe in a person who has strengths and weaknesses, so won’t always be able to do the right thing. But there’s more beyond yourself and your life that you haven’t experienced yet.

Ahhotep 10 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (41 minutes after post)

Not everybody has roots and strong relationships to lean on. You are not the only one, i would say you are in the twenty percent or maybe more.

Help me with: Mowing a lawn up a steep hill.

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11 months, 4 weeks ago (4 hours, 17 minutes after post)

I know what you mean. I have been living a lie all my life it’s been killing me all the time recently but just know that there are other people like you out there you’re not alone in all of this. I have lied so much that I have forgotten who I am and it scares me to think of what has happened to me but I think that we can both overcome this… I don’t know who you are but I know that things will get better sooner or later and for now it might suck but before it’ll be great its gonna suck but bear with things maybe get some help( therapy etc.), listen to you’re favourite music, watch your favourite tv shows/movies and start moving :) keep going and it will get better

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