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I feel like s*** 24/7.

I get made fun of in school, am overweight for my age (14, and don’t reply with that “hormones” bulls***), my parents make me feel terrible because everything I do is not good enough for them (90 somthing percent average is not good enough) and the two things that make be happy and want to live are my cat, and “Pokémon”, my favourite video game ever. My cat died recently and I want a dog really bad and know it would make me infinitely happy, but my dad says “I have had too many things die on me” (his parents and dog, which, I know is tragic, and I know he is sincere), but if I took care of the dog, what would it matter? I am made fun of for playing Pokémon by friends and family and feel shame when talking about/playing it even though it is the only video game I ever play, and I only play for a half hour every day. The only thing stopping me from committing suicide is the guilt for the sadness I may cause to other people. The only problem is, the want for death is now overpowering the guilt. Help!

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PalIm edited this post 11 months, 4 weeks ago. Read the previous text »

I feel like s*** 24/7. I get made fun of in school, am overweight for my age (14, and don’t reply with that “hormones” bulls***), my parents make me feel terrible because everything I do is not good enough for them (90 somthing percent average is not good enough) and the two things that make be happy and want to live are my cat, and “Pokémon”, my favourite video game ever. My cat died recently and I want a dog really bad and know it would make me infinitely happy, but my dad says “I have had too many things die on me” (his parents and dog, which, I know is tragic, and I know he is sincere), but if I took care of the dog, what would it matter? I am made fun of for playing Pokémon by friends and family and feel shame when talking about/playing it even though it is the only video game I ever play, and I only play for a half hour every day. The only thing stopping me from committing suicide is the guilt for the sadness I may cause to other people. The only problem is, the want for death is now overpowering the guilt. Help!

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PalIm edited this post 11 months, 4 weeks ago. Read the previous text »

I feel like s*** 24/7. I get made fun of in school, am overweight for my age (14, and don’t reply with that “hormones” bulls***), my parents make me feel terrible because everything I do is not good enough for them (90 somthing percent average is not good enough) and the two things that make be happy and want to live are my cat, and “Pokémon”, my favourite video game ever. My cat died recently and I want a dog really bad and know it would make me infinitely happy, but my dad says “I have had too many things die on me” (his parents and dog, which, I know is tragic, and I know he is sincere), but if I took care of the dog, what would it matter? I am made fun of for playing Pokémon by friends and family and feel shame when talking about/playing it even though it is the only video game I ever play, and I only play for a half hour every day. The only thing stopping me from committing suicide is the guilt for the sadness I may cause to other people. The only problem is, the want for death is now overpowering the guilt. Help!

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Yggdrassil offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

I am very sorry about your cat, i know how it feels to lose pet :/ But I am sure you will be able to get puppy soon. Try to forget it for few weeks now, so you give some time to your dad and then make really good research on the type of dog you would love to have. Print it out…everything there is about it ( food, the care it needs, etc) and talk to you parents that you will really be able to care for him.

You should not be ashamed of things you like and enjoy as long as you dont hurt other people. Besides Pokemon, what things you really like ? Like subjects in school or your hobbies ?

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

Have you ever considered making art? There is a lot of different kinds to choose from. The subtle water color, aloof sketching, noble painting, and even other things like print making, ceramics, sculptures, and mixed media. I know it sounds like a lot of things that may or may not interest you, but it is a great relief for all of those sour emotions. Whenever I feel like I am going to die in my skin, so frustrated and lost, one thing that really helps is getting it into form. Like doing different kinds of art. I like to use pen and ink, myself. And the more you do it, the better you get.
Don’t let others making fun of what you like get you down. I’ve been playing Pokemon since I was seven, and I’m 19. Well, maybe seven. Really young is all I can say for sure. I still have like all the games and I’ve never gotten made fun of (that I know about) a lot of people like Pokemon. Probably because it’s awesome!

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11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

You’re still young. It will get better as you get older. When I was your age I felt the same way 24/7. Now I’m 21 and life feels so different. You are still growing up and going through changes

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 30 minutes after post)

Just think about what you can do when u leave school and make your own life someware just keep thinking one day I will be what you can’t a good guy it all ends one day the crap from sch I mean just keep your head up high fined someone that likes the same things you do and to be overweight is nothing there just bully’s

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