I feel like s*** 24/7.
I get made fun of in school, am overweight for my age (14, and don’t reply with that “hormones” bulls***), my parents make me feel terrible because everything I do is not good enough for them (90 somthing percent average is not good enough) and the two things that make be happy and want to live are my cat, and “Pokémon”, my favourite video game ever. My cat died recently and I want a dog really bad and know it would make me infinitely happy, but my dad says “I have had too many things die on me” (his parents and dog, which, I know is tragic, and I know he is sincere), but if I took care of the dog, what would it matter? I am made fun of for playing Pokémon by friends and family and feel shame when talking about/playing it even though it is the only video game I ever play, and I only play for a half hour every day. The only thing stopping me from committing suicide is the guilt for the sadness I may cause to other people. The only problem is, the want for death is now overpowering the guilt. Help!
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