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I was in your boat at one point. You know you will never be happy as a drug addict. You need to get yourself clean. It’s not your families job to keep you happy especially when you are doing drugs. How do you think that makes them feel.

Anyhow I was ready to end my life, but I held on even though I was good for nothing working 3 jobs to support my drug habit. I was angry at everyone except myself which is who I should of been angry with the most. I just prayed to God for him to send me someone to save me. He did. I’m 4 years sober now and happy to be alive.

When do you start to have mental problems? Before or after the drugs?

Drugs are only going to make your mental illnesses worst. They were the cause of my mind going crazy. You need to want to help yourself before anyone can help you. You need to realize you can only deal with one issue at a time. Get away from the drugs and cutting. I know it’s easier said than done, but if I can do it I know you can.

Fixx wrote:
I was diagnosed with severe depression before I started doing drugs, and then I was diagnosed with schizophrenia while I was still on them.

You can fix all of this if you want to, but you need to learn so much and you have to want to get better. If you don’t want to get better then you probably will not. SO keep striving to want these things to change. It takes a little hope, and faith. I was also very depressed. I’m smiling again and it feels good. While I was recovering from drugs I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror. You just have to suck it up because it will be tough to quit, but ultimately if you want to be happy then that’s what you have to do. It’s going to be a tough battle, but it’s better than what you are doing now which is merely getting a temporary high so you feel good for the moment. When are you going to stop pretending drugs aren’t the problem and start to deal with your issue in a better and healthier way?

Narcotics are a temporary solution which cause long-term harm.
You need to start seeking health professionals. What happened to the person who diagnosed you with depression. What is he/she doing to help you?

I am terribly sadden to hear that you are feeling so low, life is hard that is for sure. I also have clinical depression, and had a bad nervous break down about a year back. There was not much support, some was more of a kick while you are down, and then it is to much, I can understand this. People like to put you in a box to label you as this or that crap, but you are just you and who are they to say anything about what they can never understand.
I so not have an answer for you, I just wanted to tell you I hear your soul pain and know it is overwhelming. There are some days which are better than others, and when they get overwhelming it is nice to escape to this place and try to find some help.
If you are lonely and sad you are not the only one, it hurts a great deal to deal with things that are not understood, and no one has a right to make that judgment over another.
I think you return to those drugs because they help you in some ways to escape that pain, just like the meds they give at the pharmacy. But the issue is harder to fix on our own.. maybe there are is something that can fill that void beyond all this..
I have found helping others and loving people has helped me.
My heart is sorry for your lovely spirit wants to escape, I know it well, I hope that you can find a reason to love yourself enough to come through this time..
Love Agape

Fixx wrote:
I don’t know when…..I feel like drugs, even though it’s a temporary high….makes me happy, and that’s all I really want in life is to be happy.

The therapist that diagnosed me said she couldn’t see me until I got my drug problem under control. So I’ve been trying to find an AODA therapist to help me….but no luck.

There is a major difference between ‘feeling’ happy and ‘being’ happy. One is effortless with the right conditions, and the other is a lie.
Keep searching, there are always professionals out there who will help you with your problems.

Ask the therapist that diagnosed you for a referral to another professional who can help with the drug problem.

Fixx,

I do know where you might be so it is hard to look up stuff that might help but I did find a link that you might look into.
http://www.goodtherapy.org/find-thera…
Not sure if that is the best place to start or not.. I am just glad that you are trying to find some help for yourself. Not everyone understands, people that you think were there for you before might not be, so you need to be for you, ‘if it is to be it is up to me..’well that might not be as easy to do as it is to say but when you learn to find some new paths to things which can help it makes the load a lot lighter for you.

Do not worry about all the things that are ahead of you, just be in the moment right now, and take a deep breathe and know that you are good enough to be part of this world and deserve to have that happiness that you are seeking.
Sometimes it takes time to find new ways, better people and support but in the end, you prevail with just a little effort and love to a place where you never thought you could be..
I can send you some more stuff that has helped me to feel well again.
L

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