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insane people think theyre the sanest person in the world. so you cant be insane :)
Hm. I thought the first rule of insanity was denial. If you really are insane i doubt you would be the first one to notice.
But aside from that, reading books about what ever is troubling you often proofs to be efficient for me. Or maybe talking to a complete stranger on the internet who is willing to listen.
I didn’t say I was the first person to notice. In fact it’s only just come to my attention.
Someone pointed it out and at first I was incredibly offended and obviously wanted to argue but then I actually thought about it and realised that I kind of knew on some level my actions weren’t normal because I was hiding them from people, but I’d been telling myself it was because they ‘’wouldn’t understand'’ not because there was something wrong with them.
Now I’m thinking there is something fundamentally wrong with my thinking but I don’t really know what I can do about it.
I’m not saying I am completely insane, cause I suppose then I wouldn’t have become aware at all. I don’t think I need to be locked away but I’m certainly not functioning normally in society right now
Also when I think about the way people have been treating me the last few months in particular… I think it was pretty obvious to them there was something wrong. They weren’t going to tell me though were they?
Most people see you’re crazy and avoid you, or if they’re friends and have only known you as kinda crazy just ignore it and accept it as part of who you are, until it gets too much and then they avoid you too.
I’ve somehow been ignoring all this and telling myself I was just misunderstood. I guess I am but that doesn’t take away the fact I was/am acting kind of well crazy.
Its hard to understand what you are talking about when there is no concrete examples. But from what i can read here you seem to have the ability to reflect over your own being, so i wouldn’t consider you insane.
Just so that its said, you may be right about you thinking fundamentally different, but why is that a bad thing? Nobody functions normally in our society any longer, being different is an asset.
“The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.” - George Bernard Shaw
These ideas of insanity probably won’t get you very far. It sounds like you have actual specific issues, beyond a vague idea of thinking that you’re “insane”, and you can definitely get help with dealing with specific life patterns or issues that have you concerned. One way to try to do it is to write out the details of the situation on this site, and sometimes people can offer insight, wisdom and suggestions.
I’ll put it this way then. I am not insane. But I am completely and utterly losing control of my life and ******* up so spectacularly at this point that people are avoiding me if they begin to get a whiff of my fading sanity.
And I must stink at this point.
I similar to u, anonymous. I like angelchrom’s comment. I would also say:
“Smart people seem like crazy people to normal people”
I understand a lot better what you’re saying now. Thanks for explaining. I hope that we can all somehow help you get back to a place where you know what’s going on in your life and have more control, and have everything make more sense. Maybe calling and talking to family members or old friends might help you to feel better?
Last month, every day made sense to me, most of the day, and each day was very healthy and meaningful, and it was because I was taking it one day at a time, focussing on one major self-helpful theme each day, making a project out of that. And then I decided to not do that for a while, and the past few days have in contrast been very unclear and chaotic. Maybe you have a similar memory of a time when you were in more control and more organized and you could choose to start doing whatever you were doing then?
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