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I feel lifeless and stupid.

It’s holidays now and I’m supposed to do my homework. I haven’t started my homework yet and my freakin’ school starts next week! ****. I’m f**king doomed. I mean…What kind of girl who doesn’t do her homework? I’m not lazy but I just don’t feel like doing anything. All I can do is just lying on bed and surfing the internet for hours. I feel nothing. I’m also nervous of my upcoming exam this August! :( The exam is really really important to me. The hardest part is my parents are expecting me to get straight A’s since I’ve disappointed them with my latest exam results. Can’t this get any worse? I’m afraid that I can’t do exam paper for mathematics. It’s so hard to be me. I wish I was smart like my friends who are currently studying in a smart boarding school. How I wish I one of them! Actually,I used to get grades like A’s and B’s. I don’t know why I suddenly turned into such a horrible stupid kid! I hate myself. I hate my face and f**king brain. My teeth are not aligned and it makes me look like I have a fat chin every time I close my mouth. I’m just patiently waiting for the braces to straighten my teeth. I look really horrible from some angles! Sometimes I browse pretty girls’ pictures on Facebook and I constantly compare to myself to them. Apart from that,I always pretend that I’m happy in front of my parents even when I’m not! So yeah,they never know that I have bad days and s**t. I also always feel alone even with my friends. I don’t really have friends in this WORLD. My friends always make fun of me and they think that’s not going to hurt my feelings at all. They never apologize to me for things that they have done to me. I feel so alone. I used to have a GREAT sense of humour and used to be friendly with everyone. I don’t know what jokes are. I don’t know how to be friendly…Whenever I meet someone new over the internet. All I can say is “Hi,what’s up”and then I have nothing else to say afterwards! Perhaps because I’m afraid that I can annoy someone! I’ve been called annoying once :( I wasn’t being annoying but I was trying to be nice..Since that incident,I’ve changed my attitude and started to act “something that isn’t annoying” Blah. But yeah,I still don’t have a sense of humour..Usually when I talk to this funny guy-friend,I’d totally laugh out loud but last night I talked to him and I didn’t laugh or anything. Nothing happened. It’s like I’m feeling nothing and empty. So honestly,I have no one to talk to in this world. My friend on the internet doesn’t always go on Facebook like she used to. Therefore,I’m completely alone and have nobody to talk to. I feel like this life is nothing..I live for nothing. I was born for nothing. I had a horrible childhood. I wasn’t really a happy kid. Right now my life is so f**ked up! I wish someone could talk to me :( I need someone who would be there when I need him/her. That’s all.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

Try to clear your head and study. I know its hard. Things will get better.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

I’ve tried but nothing will ever work out fine :(

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 28 minutes after post)

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 45 minutes after post)

Sounds like your having a pretty tough time! I’ve been though similar things before, so I’m gonna try n tell you what helped me. Okay since there’s quite a lot, I’m gonna split this into chunks:

School: Last term, my grades slipped loads too. I used to get straight A’s without even bothering, but for some reason my grades suddenly sucked! My parents expected loads from me too, and most of my friends are out getting medicine degrees and all very advanced stuff! I eventually worked out it was because I spent so much time just laid in bed thinking about stuff, or surfing the internet. Action plan: I gave my computer to my mum and told her I was not allowed on it for a week, and placed my alarm clock outside my room (so that I’d have to get up to get the stupid thing to stop blaring at me! ha ha). When I was studying or doing cwk, I rewarded myself with one of my favourite sweets for each page I wrote/half hour of revison. Believe it or not, it worked, and my grades went back up! Cheerful music helped too :)

Looks: ugh I know exactly what you mean! My teeth used to be so messed up, I once smiled at a 5 year old and he ran away screaming!!!! Ha ha ha really funny looking back on it now, but it definitely wasn’t at the time! I know braces seem like a long hard slog, but trust me, it will really be worth it in the end! Don’t worry about all the other girls on fb - one day we’ll all be old and looks really won’t matter - only what is on the inside! I have 3 sisters, all of who are stunning - sometimes I’m sure I’m adopted! But, I know we are all amazing in our own way, they just have a few extra bonus points :)

Friends/humour/watching what you say: I started uni this year, and I had to make a new set of friends. at first, I tried to be someone that I wasn’t; more confident, more ‘normal’ (so not speaking like Stitch!) and more outgoing. However, it just didn’t work. It didn’t help me to get more friends, in fact I didn’t have any. There was one guy who tried to include me all the time, but I was so depressed and lonely I just couldn’t talk to anyone properly - I’d say hi, how are you, and then really struggle, just like you online. Eventually, I realized that I just needed to be myself, even if some people may find me ‘annoying’ or ’stupid’. I can not tell you how much things have actually changed since I made that decision. Even though I was back to my shy, but sill self, I actually had more friends than before!

Don’t try to be anyone that your not, and don’t let anything like grades, your appearance or anyone else bring you down! Find something that makes you really feel like yourself and want to be alive, and use it to push yourself up!

I hope some of this has helped in some way! Take care! :)

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