sleep help: I’m doing it again.

MelanieDi

I’m doing it again.

I’m up at 3 AM, reading stories about women who had abortions. I have no idea what possessed me to do this. I know that it just upsets me when I read stuff like that, yet I still do this.

I was supposed to be asleep hours ago. I don’t even know how I’ll stay up tomorrow.

I guess I just wanted to know if anyone has any advice as to how I can stop thinking about this. I really need sleep. I’ve already taken two sleeping pills, and I’m considering taking more.

Yes, I know it’s none of my business that those women did that, but that doesn’t make my heart hurt any less. It feels like someone set my heart on fire.

I keep trying to just tell myself that when I am a mom, I’ll be far more loving and caring than those women. But that doesn’t help.

I am actually almost jealous of those women who aborted and don’t even care. I wish I didn’t care about anyone but myself. Even if I couldn’t care about myself, that’s fine too.

Anyway, how can I just make myself calm down and stop thinking? Are there any pills I can take? I just want something quick. I have to wake up in a few hours.

Stress-free answers only please. As in, don’t just tell me that it’s none of my business or anything along the lines of that. It’s not helpful at all.

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Zirbel 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

Just stop reading on that topic. Read something else and listen to peaceful music!

A good an very helpful method asleep quickly (even if you don’t feel tired) is the following one:

• Lie down and close your eyes.
• Roll up constantly your eyballs as high as you can – while keeping the eyes closed!

You will asleep in less then 15 minutes, without fail!
It’s not painful, but the first times it irritates a bit. But hold on and concentrate solely on this exercise. There is no health risk at all.

The scientific background is:
While we sleep, our eyes turn completely upward in a way we can not deliberately bring it. But the above exercise sends a clear signal to the brain: “Oh, I (nearly) sleep.” And brain can fall asleep.

Try it out, several times, it’s really helpful!

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MelanieDi 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

Thank you. In about a month, I will be staying with my boyfriend for the summer, and he doesn’t have Internet at his house so I won’t be able to look at that stuff even if I want to.

And I will try that.

SlightlyUnique 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

You could try thinking about it from a different perspective

Is it crueler to abort a child, or bring one up into a horribly abusive relationship with only hate, fear and poverty in which they will live for their days?

Rather than feeling such heat about it, think of the alternatives and find the balance that will let you sleep :)

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MelanieDi 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (12 hours, 32 minutes after post)

It doesn’t help, because I can’t make myself think that it’s true. In my heart I will always know the truth, so I can’t convince myself otherwise.

Like with that, for example. A lot of people grow up in abusive homes, and eventually, things get better for them. They grow up, move out, and live happily ever after. The scar is always there, but they learn ways to cope. They can go on to do great things.

I mean, my life hasn’t been perfect. Sometimes my dad gets so mad that I have to hide in the bathroom.

But in three more years, I can move out and live a happy life.

SlightlyUnique 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (4 days after post)

some do, some don’t. Some go on to repeat the cycle in a endless loop of destruction.

Is it fair to inflict even one year on someone that never asked for it? Same goes for familys that should never have had kids!

*shrugs*

You will also find that truth is subjective :) - But it doesn’t matter. Ye believes what ye believes! -

As help goes, the way you cope and move on is by either reconciling yourself to it, or not thinking about it. You’ve been given an idea of both of them - how you do it is ulimately up to you!

Do you have any ideas how?

MelanieDi 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (4 days, 23 hours after post)

Thanks. Now I’ll be up all night, thinking only about what you said. I’m gonna go take about 50 more sleeping pills. Night.

SlightlyUnique 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (4 days, 23 hours after post)

Whats one nights lost sleep compared to years worth of decent sleep?

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