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My boyfriend of not even a year yet…
(we’ve been living together since july 2011, & started going out together before that)
has said to me many times, that him having a child of his own one day, is more important to him than being with just me for forever.
Even though I love him like crazy, & want nothing more than just to be with him & be happy, he does not want that, and all he wants is a child of his own,.
You see, I never want any children of my own, as i’m too selfish for that, I enjoy life too much to let anything like that drag me down.
I have never wanted children & never do, not at 16, nor 18, nor 20, nor 25, nor now at almost 30 years old. I never want kids, he knows this, yet apart of him thinks that i’ll change my mind, but I never will.
So its left down to me to leave him, and head back home to my hometown in the midlands.
The thing is, he says that he loves me, yet not enough to stay with me no matter what, as I know if he truely deeply madly loved me like crazy, he’d stay with me no matter what my choices were.
Even today when I started packing my things into my suitcase and bags, he just sat on the bed, not saying alot, with an emotionless look on his face.
I mean, he’s a man that I love with all of my heart, and yet I’m not aloud to stay with him, because him finding some bint & having a kid is more important it seems.
I cannot do or say anything more, except to leave him, and let him get on with his life…so long as he’s happy..ey? :/
what do you guys out there think?
Am I just being selfish??.. in just wanting to be with him for forever, as he says I am.. & he also said, that he cannot live a lie, as he wants a kid of his own, as it is Very important to him.
So I have no choice.. but to head home with a broken heart, and shall spend my 30th birthday single. :(
Le sigh, from a woman who’s giving up on the whole happy ending..
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