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I’m feeling so home sick:(.
I’ve been living in France with my fiance for a month now.He had to move back because his mother is sick and at the time i thought i was fine with it, i had no second thoughts at the airport. But i’m feeling really depressed, obviously i miss my family but i’ve always found my self able to detatch myself quickly from a person(s) if i know i’m going to see them again soon(which i am in a few weeks). But i miss other things, France is just so unfamiliar i don’t feel comfortable, it’s just not home. And i miss a lot of other stuff, i miss my local pub and the drunken yobs at the weekend, i miss my scottish neighbour who always complains about the wheely bins on the curb, i miss my language; i speak a lot of french just not fluently; it become such a mental strain for me to keep translating things in my head, how my fiance did it i’ve no idea. I don’t feel like i belong here and i don’t really think i want to. I know home is where you make it but i’m not sure if this is where i should live. I’m English; he and i were-are? considering children, but should the time come i think i’d want to raise them in England, where they can see their grandparents and i’m sure he feels the same way towards France; i guess we could compromise with the channel islands?
I don’t know if i should go home; it seems like such a minute reason but it’s overcoming everything else at the moment. I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything i’m not eating as much as i normally did. I feel like i’m becoming a burden to my fiance when he visits his mother and i just… i just feel useless right now. i told you i can detatch myself from people easily, i’ve never thought it as a choice it just happens; i don’t know what i see in him anymore. Is it worth staying…
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