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San Francisco, CA, US | 11 months, 1 week ago (0 minutes after post)

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Space Weaver 15 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (6 minutes after post)

you live a more productive life then me, all I do is eat and sleep

anyway, it sounds like there’s something that you wanted but didn’t quite work out how you intended. well someday it won’t be like this…pretty sure you want a solution right now, how about you write a fictional biography about your life, change or remove things that you didn’t like, good way to take the edge off go do it.

Ahhotep 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (11 minutes after post)

Maybe sit in a hot tub at a community center or somewhere. The really hot water and jets are relaxing.

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Savanna_ 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

Space Weaver wrote:
you live a more productive life then me, all I do is eat and sleep

anyway, it sounds like there’s something that you wanted but didn’t quite work out how you intended. well someday it won’t be like this…pretty sure you want a solution right now, how about you write a fictional biography about your life, change or remove things that you didn’t like, good way to take the edge off go do it.

All I do is sit and think…

Wanted something that did not work out? No, that’s the funny thing. I want nothing from life, and I cannot describe the cause of my suicidal tendencies as there are too many incomprehensible thoughts that cause it. So ill just go with “I feel numb”

Write a story.. requires focus and effort.

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Ahhotep 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (14 minutes after post)

Listen to music, watch nice shows. Maybe you will have some good days.

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Positivemessylove 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

It sounds like you do ALOT of thinking!
I’m not saying you should cut back on thinking, at all, but I think you should change the direction of your thoughts.
Think about different things, with a different attitude. Maybe something more positive, or productive, or time consuming.
And then you will feel better, or begin to. And things will get better for you!
If you want your life to turn to a new direction, change what you’re doing!

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Savanna_ 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (22 minutes after post)

I don’t want to turn my life around, just find something that will take up my time. Currently this is what I do every day: Wake up and listen to music for an hour. Get something to eat. lay outside and think for three hours. watch tv. Take a nap. Eat dinner. Talk to a few friends that come online. Sleep. Then start the day again.

I live in the middle of nowhere and can seem to find nothing to escape my thoughts.. even if it is just for an hour or so..

Help me with: Just writing..

beth136196 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (34 minutes after post)

What do you think about?

mindhealer 40 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (35 minutes after post)

I’m reminded of a pink freud song, maybe you’d like it, here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1htZFV…

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Savanna_ 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (43 minutes after post)

Interesting song.

Maybe I should stop trying so hard not to feel numb.. It’s wrong.. and I know that, but it’s better than restless and troubled.

Help me with: Just writing..

CallingAllAngels 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

If you can’t control what you think, you will not be able to control what you do.
Keep trying to think positively. I’ve had times when all I could think about was I don’t deserve to live and I should just end it, but what made me better was realizing I’m not going to end it. I’m going to wake up in the morning and enjoy life. Pretty soon your thoughts will turn into actions so start thinking of what you want to be not how depressed you are.

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Savanna_ 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

But I do want to end it.. or are going at least try. Thats not what bothers me. My thoughts do not bother me either.. I just need to find something to occupy my time for now. Too early to start feeling numb. Haha thats so.. wrong, but true.

Help me with: Just writing..

Savanna_ 43 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 28 minutes after post)

Advice from random strangers.. very unhelpful. But I guess there wasn’t really a chance to find a solution anyways. I will just find a video game.. o_o

Help me with: Just writing..

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How to stop feeling numb?

I don’t have that drive to live. It bothers me. Every thought I have now is.. why haven’t I killed myself yet..or at least try to? I don’t want to be here. Minutes seem like hours and days are endless. At night I don’t sleep. I have taken to drinking until the thoughts go away, but the fall back into shitvill comes pretty quickly after.. and I don’t like the constant migraines. I already know what’s going to happen, and I honestly do want to die.. but I do not want to feel like this for another month and I don’t know how to change that.

A game? Something to occupy my time? I tried that but I seem to be too apathetic to do much of anything. Whenever I start painting or writing or any sort of thing that requires concentration or effort I get this urge to go lay down and stare at nothing for hours and hours and hours.. Last summer it got very bad.. I simply became numb and could not care about a single thing.. eating.. sleeping.. I just shut down. . .

I’m trying not to fall into this habit but its only been a week into summer (I think thats about right?) and I already am beginning to get worse.. haha, anyone have any ideas on how to not become a self loathing vegetable? I am not going to get “professional help” .. I just need something to occupy my thoughts.

Help me with: Just writing..

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