I think im a lesbian!
Basic crap- Im 16 going on 17. I’ve never been in a relationship before though i have been kissed (not really important. It was by a girl but way too quick to remember the feeling). I love boobs.. I mean ive been caught staring because their so ******* amazing kind of love boobs (though apparently i’m not the only one because half of the apparently straight girls in my class seem to feel the same way. Though now that i think about it the pics of 3 of them making out on facebook may suggest otherwise).
I think most girls look amazingly hot in red and i once had a love at first sight sort of crush on a guy that lasted as long as it took me to realize how stupid he was.
When i look at a guy i can think wow or hes cute but i’ve never thought anything remotely sexual towards any guy and the thought of kissing one just sounds awkward.
When i find a girl i like my reaction usually consists of boobs, smile and what it would be like to feel her push me up against a wall and makeout with me.
Bet you cant tell but im actually really shy (to a point, after that while still slightly submissive in nature im pretty much the opposite of shy) Anywho, not sure why i told you that, just a little bit of irrelevant information about little old me.
Awkward but all my fantasies are about being forced to do **** with chicks and liking it and being hurt by girls (commonly being slapped, hit or bitten) and liking it.
I know i pretty much sound really gay at this point but i keep thinking and being told things like its a phase, you liked that guy so you cant be a lesbian, you’re at least sort of attracted to guys, you’re less awkward around guys (that one gets me a lot- oh yeah! An awkward personality- great isnt it?), your just one of those girls that will kiss another girl but not do anything more, you only think those things because girls dont seem as threatning as guys. And my favourite- you’re probably straight, you’re just a late bloomer.
Honestly its all obviously making me doubt my sexaulity just a bit and i was wondering if anyone with experience in these sorts of matters could tell me what happened with them or say anything that may make things a little clearer. Cheers.
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