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I feel like dumbass loser who doesn’t deserve the second chance at junior year.

All year I’ve told myself, Oh your doing poor because you went up a level in the class, and oh ya know your mom went and was a ***** and traumatized you and made you go though some serious **** and make a decision that no one should ever make. I failed 2 classes after getting A’s and B’s sophomore year, now I need to got through summer school to stay at my school or else I transfer for my senior year. I don’t want that pressure too. My mom and I arn’t on speaking terms, but I’m not the one who pulled a gun out a threated to kill her daughter as a joke to see what she’d do! I’m not the one who is actually trying to turn the whole family around. I’m the one who is actually trying to do good in life and I wind up failing costing my dad a fortune through surgery that I need, a counselor that I need, meds that I now need for my anger and anxiety, summer school that I need. I mean he’s a single dad and he donesn’t deserve this either! I’ve been told my many people that they are surprised I haven’t committed suicide yet, and honestly I’ve been thinking of a way that i could. I didn’t ask for this life. All i want is to be a normal teenager who doesn’t have to spend her last normal summer, in school, and recovering from surgery. I got 2-5 hours a sleep every night trying to pass and I still failed, I tried so hard I get sick every month sometimes less than that. I still failed. I don’t know what todo anymore.

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DarkSnow offline Verified User (3 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (41 minutes after post)

Your teenage years are a small portion of the rest of your life. And in my experience, things got a lot better once I left them behind ^^ Although it hasn’t been long yet for me, things have improved drastically.
Can you see that the future has a good chance of being much better?

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laurenbfoste offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (4 hours, 56 minutes after post)

The harder your life is, the greater success will be if you conquer the dark years. You are not a screw up. You are human. Your parents are human too. They seem to be adding drama to your situation and that’s why you failed. You’re not a dummy. Don’t talk about yourself that way. It’s miraculous you’ve gone through everything you have and you are still willing to try.

Do summer school, it’ll get you out of the house. Spend a couple hours at the library doing your homework after. After your senior year, you can go to college and move out. You don’t even have to go home if you don’t want to when you’re in College. I’m not saying run away from your problems. You should talk to your parents and tell them that they are stressing you out, but you should still do your best because your future is at stake. You are going to do great things in life if you can just do what you have to do to graduate with good grades. Tune out the bad stuff and channel it through your school work.

The better the grades, the better University you can attend AND you can take your pick of the campuses.

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Positivemessylove offline Verified User (11 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (5 hours, 8 minutes after post)

I think you need to speak to a counselor or therapist about your family problems. I think it would really help :)
and you need to find an adult to talk about your mother with. what she did was messed up and unacceptable.

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