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I feel like dumbass loser who doesn’t deserve the second chance at junior year.
All year I’ve told myself, Oh your doing poor because you went up a level in the class, and oh ya know your mom went and was a ***** and traumatized you and made you go though some serious **** and make a decision that no one should ever make. I failed 2 classes after getting A’s and B’s sophomore year, now I need to got through summer school to stay at my school or else I transfer for my senior year. I don’t want that pressure too. My mom and I arn’t on speaking terms, but I’m not the one who pulled a gun out a threated to kill her daughter as a joke to see what she’d do! I’m not the one who is actually trying to turn the whole family around. I’m the one who is actually trying to do good in life and I wind up failing costing my dad a fortune through surgery that I need, a counselor that I need, meds that I now need for my anger and anxiety, summer school that I need. I mean he’s a single dad and he donesn’t deserve this either! I’ve been told my many people that they are surprised I haven’t committed suicide yet, and honestly I’ve been thinking of a way that i could. I didn’t ask for this life. All i want is to be a normal teenager who doesn’t have to spend her last normal summer, in school, and recovering from surgery. I got 2-5 hours a sleep every night trying to pass and I still failed, I tried so hard I get sick every month sometimes less than that. I still failed. I don’t know what todo anymore.
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