Did I do the right thing by deleting him?
My ex broke up with me and was so mean to me. Said I stressed him out and said I was difficult which wasn’t true. I liked this guy so much that I dealt with a lot of his ish..I kept my mouth shut about a lot of the things he would do. But one day I exploded and he dumped me. I was devastated. ..In the same breathe he asked me to be friend, he wanted me to add him back on BBM, at the time. I wanted him to feel bad for what he said to me because it was hurtful and untrue. But he just played around with me. During the time he was on my blackberry though. He’d get jealous if I was going out. Saying I was replacing him. I told him I missed him and he said he didn’t throw anything away, he;s just busy. Then one day he told me he was with a girl after saying he wanted to be with me still.
This upset me, I told him about himself. Then he said all those things. I cut all contact with him. This was 3 weeks ago.
Today, I get a request on my blackberry from him. I wanted to see what he had to say, because this week, I saw him and he turned away when he saw me.
So I said what brings you here? He said, ‘what doesn’t’ I said seriously, what is your reason for re adding me? He said he kinda misses me. I said Kinda. okay fine. You know it’s funny how you say yu miss me when you ran away from me the other day. He said he swears on his life he never saw me.
I said fine, well. Missing me if not enough, you think you can just add me and things will be okay and forgotten about? Not even to say sorry? I find you so immature and it pi**es me off.
He replied. Please, just leave it. I want to talk, not argue.
But he never said anything after this. I’m was so tired of waiting for the same person who thinks he’s god’s gift to prove me wrong about him. But he didn’t. So I deleted him. But ever since I deleted him, I feel like I should have given him a chance, even though he hurt me so bad. Whenever I saw his name on my bb, all the anger and hurt came back. He text me and said you deleted me, i said ‘look, I’d like to me civil, I don’t mind speaking to you now and then. But blackberry messenger is too personal for me right now. No hard feelings I hope.’
He never replied. I miss him so much and I feel like I should have spoken to him but I also felt horrible knowing that he was on my blackberry because he can see whats going on with me and he can wear me down when he wants to. I feel like I’m over his cr*p. But I also feel like this is the end. He wont speak to me again. Which is dumb but I’m still not over this guy yet, and I so want to be. I know he doesn’t want me to be though….
Did I do the right thing?
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