Happy fathers day?
you know ive taken a lot of crap from people saying i need to go see my dad on fathers day because its his holiday i should be spending it with him, bla bla bla. but i chose to spend it with my grandfather this year. why you ask? because my dad SUCKS.
he has his good moments, once in a while. like when he paid for my arkansas trip. but really he only did that because my sister was the one who called (she has a different dad) and he is intimidated by her. people are blowing up my facebook with long corny posts on how thankful they are for their dad and what am i supposed to say? Happy fathers day to the man who used to beat my sisters? Happy fathers day to the man who literally every word that comes out of his mouth is a lie? Happy fathers day to the man who is racist, inconsiderate, uncaring, selfish, and downright nasty? What about how i spent my entire childhood watching from the sidelines as he would throw crap everytime he got mad and beat the living crap out of my step mom. And the only reason she stayed with him is because she knew all too well the second she left all of his anger would go on defenseless little me. And that showed, because when they finally did divorce he started to get angrier towards me, and one day he took it too far and i didnt talk to him for 4 months afterwards. even after that it wasnt the same. and then eventually i just left for arkansas and said “adios bitchachos”
im not naive anymore. im not defenseless anymore. and i know there is still going to be people who are going to call me a selfish child and to be thankful for everything my dad has done, even though he doesnt do crap. he hardly will even pay his dang child support, and when he does it requires us to literally harass the crap out of him to do it otherwise hell just lie and say hell do it and never show up, cant tell you how many times thats happened.
the only reason i go to his house now on the weekends is because my older brother lives with him. he grew up in phoenix and just this year moved in with my dad because financial issues were really tight in the west. well my brother told me that he cant take anymore of my dads crap (and i dont blame him) so he wants to move back come this december. and he asked me if i would even ever come over to dads at all after he moved. and i said no. its not really a surprise. my dad doesnt really enforce me to come (thank God) but i dont want to see him or be alone with him or listen to all the crap that spews from his mouth. i dont want him to think that now that my brothers out of the picture he can take his anger out on me again because that aint rolling with me. no freaking way am i putting up with that bull. and the second im 18, im getting the heck out of this state, i dont care what he says about it or has to think. i dont care how much of a guilt trip he puts on me i dont care! I dont want to be around him.
so heres to the crappy dad on this lovely holiday that never actually gave a flying crap about me. love you too :P
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