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I did lhe worst thing imaginable.

And i cant love with myself. It makes me sick everytime i look at her. Best friends for years and years.maid of honor. Disgusting. I was drunk. Her husband came on to me. We slept together , 3 times. Nothing you Van say will make me feel worst. It was a year ago now. But i just cannot believe i did this. Wed fell out .my fiance of 6 years cheated on me with my aunty. And my dad got out of prison for abusing me in my childhood. I was in such a bad place. I wasnt myself. But how could i do that to her. I am so lost. I cnt tell her. Ive hurt her enough without braking her family up. And my soul. Am i going to hell for this. I just hate myself so much.

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Anonymous #
11 months ago (11 minutes after post)

You were yourself. You did it because your values had been developed in a very “value-less” environment

But now you see (with all your heart, soul, and brain) that the place where you were and the person that you had been will change.

NO you do not tell her. a person only does that to make themselves feel better and it does not work. You be quiet and suffer. But I promise you, the suffering wanes. You will mature as a result of this.

The only reason to life is to change. Stop being afraid of Hell. Start being afraid of hurting anything and anyone. Be gentle and good. And be grateful for each new day that you get to show your God how well you learned your lesson.

Anonymous #
11 months ago (47 minutes after post)

I would tell her and risk your friendship than not tell her and have her husband be able to hold this over your head.

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roofdonkey offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (1 hour, 45 minutes after post)

Anonymous wrote:
I would tell her and risk your friendship than not tell her and have her husband be able to hold this over your head.

This is the one time i would agree with Anon#2
You must tell her.
And God is not angry with you. There is no sin that cannot be forgiven except for the one that is not confessed and repented of.
The bible says that if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us of all unrighteousness.
This means that Christ took your penalty 2000 years ago for all time.
You are forgiven if you have repented which sounds like you have.
You may have to deal with the fallout of all thats happened.
But God is with you. He wont leave you alone. He is there with you even now.
My heart goes out to you.
Jesus carried your pain and sin when he was on the cross.
He did it because he loves you.

Will you not accept his offer of forgiveness?
Just tell him in your heart that you accept the finished work on the cross for your sins. He is the one that has saved you.

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cupcake7 offline Verified User (2 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months ago (1 hour, 45 minutes after post)

I have to admit i somewhat stoppped reading after you and your child are being abused.

You have so much power to say **** you and save your child from that abuse. It could be giving up your pride and friends and job… but s/he is worth it. Dont let him hurt her/him one more time. call a help line. Go to acheltter. no way can yuo stay put.

Yes, you ****** up. Sounds like other people around you have too. You can get though this.

Who can you trust? reah out. Dont think you have anyone. pack up the car, and drive.

You can save yourself, restart and save your baby from the pain.

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Anonymous #
11 months ago (7 hours, 47 minutes after post)

I nave repented to god over and over. But your right. What i did was in my eyes unforgivable.i dono think iv suffered back enough to be forgiven yet . But i wish i knew what i could do to make this right with god and my best friend. Her husband. I totally blank now. He still senda the odd filth comment txt. But unless were all together i dont even speak to him. He makes me feel sick. She is amazing sooo muco better then me. Why. Why would he risk bis perfect little family. And why would i risk my friendship. I know i cant tell her. It really would destroy her. But it brings tears to my eyes when i think about all the years shes been there for me. Yes so wev had a few months gap of friendship over the years. But what kinda person goes be maid of honour then repeatedly sleeps with the groom about 2 months after. I just wish soo much i could take it all back. I cant speak to anyone about it. I just dont know what to do. My mum is long term depressed, cuts herself and has tried loads of overdoses. Ive grew up watching that. And swore no matter how bad it gets ill never put my kids threw that. Also last replyer. You read it wrong sorry. My child isnt being abused. Just me all my “childhood” he was sent to prison when i was 13 and got out last year when all this happened. I just wish i could do something to make it wright. But i cant . Can i

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roofdonkey offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (16 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Anonymous wrote:
I nave repented to god over and over. But your right. What i did was in my eyes unforgivable.i dono think iv suffered back enough to be forgiven yet . But i wish i knew what i could do to make this right with god and my best friend. Her husband. I totally blank now. He still senda the odd filth comment txt. But unless were all together i dont even speak to him. He makes me feel sick. She is amazing sooo muco better then me. Why. Why would he risk bis perfect little family. And why would i risk my friendship. I know i cant tell her. It really would destroy her. But it brings tears to my eyes when i think about all the years shes been there for me. Yes so wev had a few months gap of friendship over the years. But what kinda person goes be maid of honour then repeatedly sleeps with the groom about 2 months after. I just wish soo much i could take it all back. I cant speak to anyone about it. I just dont know what to do. My mum is long term depressed, cuts herself and has tried loads of overdoses. Ive grew up watching that. And swore no matter how bad it gets ill never put my kids threw that. Also last replyer. You read it wrong sorry. My child isnt being abused. Just me all my “childhood” he was sent to prison when i was 13 and got out last year when all this happened. I just wish i could do something to make it wright. But i cant . Can i

You are forgiven.
There is nothing more you need to do.
What would be helpful though would be to sit down with someone and discuss this in person. Do you have a local chuuch somewhere? A place where they teach the bible verse by verse. My prayers are with you dear sis.

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