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Hello sweet heart you are not alone. I understand how it feels to want to check out, very hard when people say you are being selfish for feeling that much pain.
I am happy that you have written on here, there are a lot of people on here who can relate to how you are feeling.
What has been going on with you lately? Have you pushed some of those friends away because you do not feel up to it?
I’ll try to write something better in a bit.
I want you to know that life does get better, even if it’s just temporarily, like while you’re eating your favorite dessert.
Also, we’re teenagers, high school sucks, in college we’ll meet lots of different people. We’ll have a lot of freedom.
I appreciate your courage and transparency to come to this site.
I really do.
The answer to the resolve of what you are going through is at doors.
Knocking at the door.
But dont end your life. Thats not the answer. Despite your pain and loneliness with some love your shadows that gloom over you will begin to disappear. And hope that has been like a long lost friend will smile at you once again.
Yeah, I actually have pushed away some of my friends so it was mostly my fault that my friends are “gone” some of them couldn’t deal with how I was acting. Lately, I’ve just been trying to be “better” but it’s really hard to knowing that I’ve been in a rut for years and things hold me back. Example: my insecurities
~AGAPE~ wrote:
Hello sweet heart you are not alone. I understand how it feels to want to check out, very hard when people say you are being selfish for feeling that much pain.
I am happy that you have written on here, there are a lot of people on here who can relate to how you are feeling.
What has been going on with you lately? Have you pushed some of those friends away because you do not feel up to it?
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Thank you :) yeah. high school does suck…all the stress of school work and trying to maintain a social life.. >:(
meisabelep wrote:
I’ll try to write something better in a bit.
I want you to know that life does get better, even if it’s just temporarily, like while you’re eating your favorite dessert.
Also, we’re teenagers, high school sucks, in college we’ll meet lots of different people. We’ll have a lot of freedom.
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Hah, yeah…thank you. Also, are you a writer? Well you should be one, your writing is beautiful. Brought me to tears.
roofdonkey wrote:
I appreciate your courage and transparency to come to this site.
I really do.
The answer to the resolve of what you are going through is at doors.
Knocking at the door.
But dont end your life. Thats not the answer. Despite your pain and loneliness with some love your shadows that gloom over you will begin to disappear. And hope that has been like a long lost friend will smile at you once again.
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woeisme wrote:
Hah, yeah…thank you. Also, are you a writer? Well you should be one, your writing is beautiful. Brought me to tears.
roofdonkey wrote:
I appreciate your courage and transparency to come to this site.
I really do.
The answer to the resolve of what you are going through is at doors.
Knocking at the door.
But dont end your life. Thats not the answer. Despite your pain and loneliness with some love your shadows that gloom over you will begin to disappear. And hope that has been like a long lost friend will smile at you once again.
Aww, thank you.
Im not really a writer. But i do sing.
I serve on a worship team sunday mornings.
I have a relationship with God through Jesus Christ.
Its been exciting and wonderful. I love it!
Although i do get sad when i see others go through so much pain.
Thats why your post made me feel this way and i had to respond.
I just want to tell you that im here for you.
ALL of us are. We arent gonna judge you or freak out with the things you are going through these days.
But we would love to listen to what you have to say.
That you would have a chance to finally speak.
Wow. That’s amazing. Good for you :) and yeah. Expect more posts from me! aha…
roofdonkey wrote:
woeisme wrote:
Hah, yeah…thank you. Also, are you a writer? Well you should be one, your writing is beautiful. Brought me to tears.
roofdonkey wrote:
I appreciate your courage and transparency to come to this site.
I really do.
The answer to the resolve of what you are going through is at doors.
Knocking at the door.
But dont end your life. Thats not the answer. Despite your pain and loneliness with some love your shadows that gloom over you will begin to disappear. And hope that has been like a long lost friend will smile at you once again.
Aww, thank you.
Im not really a writer. But i do sing.
I serve on a worship team sunday mornings.
I have a relationship with God through Jesus Christ.
Its been exciting and wonderful. I love it!
Although i do get sad when i see others go through so much pain.
Thats why your post made me feel this way and i had to respond.
I just want to tell you that im here for you.
ALL of us are. We arent gonna judge you or freak out with the things you are going through these days.
But we would love to listen to what you have to say.
That you would have a chance to finally speak.
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woeisme wrote:
Yeah, I actually have pushed away some of my friends so it was mostly my fault that my friends are “gone” some of them couldn’t deal with how I was acting. Lately, I’ve just been trying to be “better” but it’s really hard to knowing that I’ve been in a rut for years and things hold me back. Example: my insecurities
~AGAPE~ wrote:
Hello sweet heart you are not alone. I understand how it feels to want to check out, very hard when people say you are being selfish for feeling that much pain.
I am happy that you have written on here, there are a lot of people on here who can relate to how you are feeling.
What has been going on with you lately? Have you pushed some of those friends away because you do not feel up to it?
I think that a great deal of the time people who have depression are unable to be understood by those around them. Because of this you tend to isolate into a place that seems safe and that is when it gets really hard because you are alone and they do not understand why. It is not acceptable to have emotional feelings in public, and if you are deeply affected by the depression, forcing yourself to be part of the outside world it equally difficult. You might get out and start crying and then you are exposed, that is why it feels best when you are in where it is private. But that is dangerous as well because you need balance and love and relationships. It takes a lot to educate others on your very real feelings, and most do not want to listen or will tell you to just get over it and suck it up. It is just like telling someone with cancer to get over it.. how unhelpful.
I need to take medication for me to be well. I hate it. But I need to, so I have been taking it and I am doing much better. But it is a number of things in combination, that will help you stay on the top. Getting sunshine, good food and exercise are helpful. My favorite thing has been to walk other peoples dogs, because I could not have my own I borrowed them. They love you unconditionally and it takes the focus off of you, when you go out you go together and feel less alone. Then other people with their dogs meet you and might say hello or chat a little. It might sound a little simple but it helped me a great deal, along with real human relationships, trying to be proactive in your health is what will save your life.
hey, i’m also a teen in high school who has been battling depression (though i did not know that it was depression until recently. i had just tried to brush it off in the past). if you ever need to talk, i’m here. and we may actually be able to help each other. plus, i’m a great listener :)
yes. oh my..you know exactly. I had medication prescribed but I choose not to take it. What do you think about insecurities and self-confidence? I’ve been bulimic and had anorexia. It has gotten better though :) but I still have those days and difficulties where I go back to those old habits. I set myself up for it though ( i’m a perfectionist ). I weigh myself often, look in the mirror constantly, and etc. It got pretty bad before to a point where my parents were asking me questions about my weight and appearance.
~AGAPE~ wrote:
woeisme wrote:
Yeah, I actually have pushed away some of my friends so it was mostly my fault that my friends are “gone” some of them couldn’t deal with how I was acting. Lately, I’ve just been trying to be “better” but it’s really hard to knowing that I’ve been in a rut for years and things hold me back. Example: my insecurities
~AGAPE~ wrote:
Hello sweet heart you are not alone. I understand how it feels to want to check out, very hard when people say you are being selfish for feeling that much pain.
I am happy that you have written on here, there are a lot of people on here who can relate to how you are feeling.
What has been going on with you lately? Have you pushed some of those friends away because you do not feel up to it?
I think that a great deal of the time people who have depression are unable to be understood by those around them. Because of this you tend to isolate into a place that seems safe and that is when it gets really hard because you are alone and they do not understand why. It is not acceptable to have emotional feelings in public, and if you are deeply affected by the depression, forcing yourself to be part of the outside world it equally difficult. You might get out and start crying and then you are exposed, that is why it feels best when you are in where it is private. But that is dangerous as well because you need balance and love and relationships. It takes a lot to educate others on your very real feelings, and most do not want to listen or will tell you to just get over it and suck it up. It is just like telling someone with cancer to get over it.. how unhelpful.
I need to take medication for me to be well. I hate it. But I need to, so I have been taking it and I am doing much better. But it is a number of things in combination, that will help you stay on the top. Getting sunshine, good food and exercise are helpful. My favorite thing has been to walk other peoples dogs, because I could not have my own I borrowed them. They love you unconditionally and it takes the focus off of you, when you go out you go together and feel less alone. Then other people with their dogs meet you and might say hello or chat a little. It might sound a little simple but it helped me a great deal, along with real human relationships, trying to be proactive in your health is what will save your life.
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Tell your parents. You need to see a GP to make sure your depression isn’t a medical condition, and get a referral for some counseling.
It will be so hard to..I don’t want them worrying about me. They have enough going on to worry about. What is a GP and being depressed..I thought it was more of a mental thing?
Dragon_Lady wrote:
Tell your parents. You need to see a GP to make sure your depression isn’t a medical condition, and get a referral for some counseling.
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Musicsoccer12 wrote:
hey, i’m also a teen in high school who has been battling depression (though i did not know that it was depression until recently. i had just tried to brush it off in the past). if you ever need to talk, i’m here. and we may actually be able to help each other. plus, i’m a great listener :)
That is very sweet.. I think tht kind of friendship is healing and supportive to better mental health. Do not let people make you feel like something is wrong with you, you are doing the best that you can with what you are dealing with.
Be well, and know that you are never alone.So many people understand this silent fight for your life, it gets better when there is someone else there too.
:/ my other reply didn’t go through but.. to sum it up: you know how it feels. that’s amazing to know that i don’t only deal with this “thing” and what is your view on insecurities/self confidence because sigh* I had been anorexic and bulimic. It got better but I still have those days where I go back to those bad habits. I set myself up for it though ( i am a perfectionist ). I also weigh myself and look in the mirror constantly throughout the day and I am interested in fashion so other girls would make me feel insecure. Sometimes, I wouldn’t go places because I find my friends so beautiful and I’m just …ugh. They intimidate me.
~AGAPE~ wrote:
woeisme wrote:
Yeah, I actually have pushed away some of my friends so it was mostly my fault that my friends are “gone” some of them couldn’t deal with how I was acting. Lately, I’ve just been trying to be “better” but it’s really hard to knowing that I’ve been in a rut for years and things hold me back. Example: my insecurities
~AGAPE~ wrote:
Hello sweet heart you are not alone. I understand how it feels to want to check out, very hard when people say you are being selfish for feeling that much pain.
I am happy that you have written on here, there are a lot of people on here who can relate to how you are feeling.
What has been going on with you lately? Have you pushed some of those friends away because you do not feel up to it?
I think that a great deal of the time people who have depression are unable to be understood by those around them. Because of this you tend to isolate into a place that seems safe and that is when it gets really hard because you are alone and they do not understand why. It is not acceptable to have emotional feelings in public, and if you are deeply affected by the depression, forcing yourself to be part of the outside world it equally difficult. You might get out and start crying and then you are exposed, that is why it feels best when you are in where it is private. But that is dangerous as well because you need balance and love and relationships. It takes a lot to educate others on your very real feelings, and most do not want to listen or will tell you to just get over it and suck it up. It is just like telling someone with cancer to get over it.. how unhelpful.
I need to take medication for me to be well. I hate it. But I need to, so I have been taking it and I am doing much better. But it is a number of things in combination, that will help you stay on the top. Getting sunshine, good food and exercise are helpful. My favorite thing has been to walk other peoples dogs, because I could not have my own I borrowed them. They love you unconditionally and it takes the focus off of you, when you go out you go together and feel less alone. Then other people with their dogs meet you and might say hello or chat a little. It might sound a little simple but it helped me a great deal, along with real human relationships, trying to be proactive in your health is what will save your life.
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you got to be more open and speak to the people around you. they may not be who you want to speak to but it’s better then being completely alone atleast.
I don’t like having people worrying about me. I’d rather worrying about other people.
Space Weaver wrote:
you got to be more open and speak to the people around you. they may not be who you want to speak to but it’s better then being completely alone atleast.
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But there are people who want to care about you, who want to help you but you have to do your part and be open toward them though. Worrying about other people won’t help only drain you, so let others help you.
Space Weaver wrote:
But there are people who want to care about you, who want to help you but you have to do your part and be open toward them though. Worrying about other people won’t help only drain you, so let others help you.
Hmmmm…
You notice how people that need the most help dont often take it or realise that they need it?
roofdonkey wrote:
Space Weaver wrote:
But there are people who want to care about you, who want to help you but you have to do your part and be open toward them though. Worrying about other people won’t help only drain you, so let others help you.
Hmmmm…
You notice how people that need the most help dont often take it or realise that they need it?
That’s because they don’t want themselves to look weak, especially in public, they don’t want people to think “they’re pretty low in society”, well that’s atleast what they’re thinking or something like that. Anyway, what they don’t realise is that usually people don’t really care about that, as they help other because they want that person to be in a good place and won’t look down on them when they help them.
Space Weaver wrote:
roofdonkey wrote:
Space Weaver wrote:
But there are people who want to care about you, who want to help you but you have to do your part and be open toward them though. Worrying about other people won’t help only drain you, so let others help you.
Hmmmm…
You notice how people that need the most help dont often take it or realise that they need it?
That’s because they don’t want themselves to look weak, especially in public, they don’t want people to think “they’re pretty low in society”, well that’s atleast what they’re thinking or something like that. Anyway, what they don’t realise is that usually people don’t really care about that, as they help other because they want that person to be in a good place and won’t look down on them when they help them.
One word…
Pride.
Pride is often revered and strived for.
It is what is the underlining impetus for almost every single human endeavor.
Pride is also a curse.
There is a monstrous unimaginable beast that is the king of all pride.
Pride is dangerous because its also blind.
There are two times in the time of a king.
When he rides horses.
Or when he rides a donkey.
He rides horses when he’s in war or preparing for war.
He rides a donkey when he’s at peace, approachable to the public, and because he CAN.
Oh I know pride can be dangerous, people get caught up one way and stick to it not changing their minds to better ideas, which really holds them back from becomming better. Unfortunately I founded the hard way that people’s minds can’t be changed instantly. Honestly when it comes to those situation it’s best to let a person learn a lesson on their own as their pride won’t let them listen to others, another one of those “there is no right answer but you really want one and can’t get it” type of situations:(
There is ALWAYS going to be somebody who cares. Don’t ever think nobody does, because they do. Even if you don’t see it.
And I think you should be your best friend, because you are the one who is always gonna be there for you.
I don’t know you but please don’t try to commit suicide ever again. It gets better, always. I know it’s hard and you can’t fight the pain anymore but just do, you don’t have anything to lose. and there will just come a day when things are gonna get better, you’ll see. but if you are dead there is nothing anymore.
Be brave :)
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