drinking help: i feel like such a failure, i wasted money when i had some n exercise equipment and it sits there collecting dust.

TheSuicidalOne

i feel like such a failure, i wasted money when i had some n exercise equipment and it sits there collecting dust.

no way to see a mental health professional unless i wait a god **** year, where is this hope? taking a walk down the street or eating a meal doesnt seem like a good time to me. the only music i listen to is stuff that makes me depressed or angry, thats all i know. i am f-ken cursed, ever since sally killed herself my life has got worse and worse. i am sick of hanging in there, words do NOT make me feel better and i am sick of calling the national suicide hotline. i did cut back on my drinking and drug use until just recently, it feels as if DEATH is controlling me and wants me to join it. i have this feeling i am going to die before my time and i cant stop it, nothing is stopping it.

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Positivemessylove 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months ago (2 minutes after post)

“I have this feeling I am going to die before my time and I can’t stop it”
how does one die before their time?
unless you mean suicide.
is that what you mean?

Help me with: What does it mean?

verge 134 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (13 minutes after post)

Did you feel better or worse without the alcohol and drugs? I think you are going to have to relearn how to trust your body. Sounds like you are rebelling against it now. That could definitely be a huge factor in your misery. I’m sorry for your loss. Sunshine and exercise relieve depression.

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TheSuicidalOne 2 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (27 minutes after post)

Allthemessylove. wrote:
“I have this feeling I am going to die before my time and I can’t stop it”
how does one die before their time?
unless you mean suicide.
is that what you mean?

no matter what good i try to do i always end up feeling despair and depression, no hope or happiness. i can say that road does lead to suicide, maybe that is my destiny? everyone on this earth has a purpose and i will assume this is mine now, so that is how god gets rid of the losers on the planet and then blames us for it.

Help me with: what does someone do when they have exhausted every option they can to get help and they just continue to get rejected by them and society.

Anonymous #
11 months ago (36 minutes after post)

Life is unfair! big deal!
stop whining man. You have to let go of the memory. move to a different place.
i know i never have been in your place but i know what it feels like.
Its just like you dont know what to do anymore. You just want to get rid of the feeling.
staying in the same place doing the same things is not gonna help. You have to let go.

Zirbel 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months ago (2 hours, 50 minutes after post)

But you really need professional help!
Have a look at this page to detect low cost or even free mental health treatments in New York:
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/02…

Especially:
· Mental Health America: http://www.nmha.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK
· National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): http://www.nami.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-950-6264

TheSuicidalOne 2 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (7 hours, 5 minutes after post)

Zirbel wrote:
But you really need professional help!
Have a look at this page to detect low cost or even free mental health treatments in New York:
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/02…

Especially:
· Mental Health America: http://www.nmha.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK
· National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): http://www.nami.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-950-6264

ok i went to the websites and i really dont understand how they work, i have a reading comprehension problem

Help me with: what does someone do when they have exhausted every option they can to get help and they just continue to get rejected by them and society.

Zirbel 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months ago (7 hours, 9 minutes after post)

the_manning_er wrote:

Zirbel wrote:
But you really need professional help!
Have a look at this page to detect low cost or even free mental health treatments in New York:
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/02…

Especially:
· Mental Health America: http://www.nmha.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK
· National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): http://www.nami.org/
Free Helpline: 1-800-950-6264

ok i went to the websites and i really dont understand how they work, i have a reading comprehension problem

But I guess you’re able to call the Helplines, no?

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