i feel like such a failure, i wasted money when i had some n exercise equipment and it sits there collecting dust.
no way to see a mental health professional unless i wait a god **** year, where is this hope? taking a walk down the street or eating a meal doesnt seem like a good time to me. the only music i listen to is stuff that makes me depressed or angry, thats all i know. i am f-ken cursed, ever since sally killed herself my life has got worse and worse. i am sick of hanging in there, words do NOT make me feel better and i am sick of calling the national suicide hotline. i did cut back on my drinking and drug use until just recently, it feels as if DEATH is controlling me and wants me to join it. i have this feeling i am going to die before my time and i cant stop it, nothing is stopping it.
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