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Hi, I’ve wanted to ask for help about my life.
What’s wrong with it? Almost everything, you’re probably don’t think a 16 years old can be so troubled :(
Let’s start by saying that, for the last 2 years, I thought I was gay.
Yeah, Nobody can see it on me, but I am.
I’m falling in love too fast, and it’s every time freaks me out.
Maybe because all my friends are in my type? Who knows :/
Okay so the problem is that one of the guys I know, a good friend - I love him (let’s call him D.E)
So I was on a vacation, And he messaged me, We started talking and he told me his battery is running off.
So he gave me his girlfriend number (yeah he’s straight :( ). we continued talking.
And after a while I started talking with his girlfriend too, and guess what? the un-expected happend.
I fell in-love with his girlfriend.

I’m actually talking with her in messages, looking on the phone-screen waiting for her reply.
I never was so excited by receiving a message :) .
And I’m talking with her about anything, so we started talking and accidently we started talking about sex.
So we always talk about it and I’m freaking out. I’m feeling bad to talk about it with her because she have a boyfriend.
And because I’m in love with her boyfriend.

Not just it, it’s a small part of my problem.
Because I’m kind-of gay (Since the last few days I’m thinking I’m bi-sexual).
I love like 4 different boys, not just in-love. I’m actually constantly thinking about them.
I suffer inside because nobody knows who I really am, and because I can’t tell it to no one.
Don’t tell me that I can talk about it with someone. Cause the society today is a killer.
I’ve saw what happened to other kids, I don’t want to be there.
And I don’t want to lose my friend, the one’s only started talking with in those last two years.
Until then I didn’t have any friend, I was all alone telling myself lies to make me feel better.
I was the outsider, the quiet one, no disturbing anyone. Just heading in my own way.
Not the smartest with the good grades.
I always talk to myself and trying to understand what’s wrong with me. I don’t want to be different.
It’s always bad for me, I think it’s a prank of God on me, Maybe because I’m an atheist :(

Sorry for my bad English, It’s not my native language and I’m not used to talk English.
And more important, sorry for the long post, I just felt I must write it somewhere.