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Not a very effective psychologist ^^

You know, it’s very helpful to be around friends. If you keep yourself away from them, you miss out on a lot of the happiness they can bring you. And having people care for you and encourage you seems to be what you need most at the moment.
The more you withdraw, the more you’ll probably feel this way, and it will only get worse.

Is this your first time seeing a psychologist? I know when I the first I I started seeing a psychologist I was already in a pretty bad state of mind. Then working through things made me feel worse for a while. I felt like I was loosing my mind because all I could think about was all the stuff I was talking to the psychologist about and life felt hopeless, like it was not going to get better. I was around 21 when I first got help for depression.

I am now 40. I am married with 3 children. I have a wonderful life. I still have depression, I have the type that is always going to be there. But I take a low dose of antidepressant, and I it keeps my emotions pretty level. I have worked hard to have a positive outlook on life, and it has made all the difference for me.

Little steps will get you there. DOn’t give up!

Most of my friends stopped hanging out with me due to my constant bouts of sadness. So I am left with strangers who don’t know about my issues. It’s irritating as well because I am looking to my family for support, but they all don’t know what to do… my mom also constantly leaves me alone and frequents her outings ever since this has happened, so really… I always find myself alone and without a strong support system, which is the reason for why my psychologist told me not to take antidepressants. - My family left to India without me and celebrated christmas there (my mother’s excuse, “the airline did not have enough seats” she even used my student i.d to get discount for herself) My other family members would tell me that they feel sorry for me, so they would ask for me to go to their house… I’m a pity case– my depression makes me relive that moment.

I don’t believe anyone really cares about those who are at their lowest point in their lives… We all have to face our issues on our own unless we find someone who loves us to stick by us no matter what (Those are the lucky ones). I can’t do this anymore… some of my family members think that I am a ***** because I haven’t spoken to them, and even my classmates think so, too. I feel so much apathy that there is no love for me… even if I feel better, my family will not let me forget this issue… they will remind me of how much of an awful person I am for not having the energy to do anything. I am ignored by everyone, and it’s only when I mess something up that my mother speaks to me. This is when I think that I would rather be dead than to continue to reside in this heartless environment where I am only the pity case.

Oh, my friends and family members think that I am ignorant because I don’t speak and would constantly forget a lot of things. This has been going on since I was in high school and even in college, they would try to bring me down… but I felt too much happiness then… so it didn’t effect me as much. Now that I have no reason to feel happiness, I am beginning to only look at the negative side of people… How much I had to fight just to stay happy back then. How much it hurts to know that some people can be so heartless and selfish, which is what I have become - makes me sick.

The only reason for why I still have my job is because I am naturally nice, and my boss feels sorry for me. My coworkers look down on me even though I know that I am right… I just allow them to judge me because I am tired of fighting… I am tired of everything.

At Babacup, you’re lucky. I’m happy that you have managed to have a wonderful life, and I hope it continues to stay that way.

“I always find myself alone and without a strong support system, which is the reason for why my psychologist told me not to take antidepressants.”

This does not make sense to me. Support system or not support system, alone or not alone, should make no difference on taking an anti depressant or not.

You are obviously very depressed. And when a person is this deep in a depression, they think people don’t care about them, they think people pitty them, they think people look down on them, BUT the trueth is, it is the depression that makes feel and think this way. Get the depression undercontrol and you will see that your family does love you. They may not know how to help you right now. I am sure it is confusing for them when you won’t talk to them.

I understand you were upset about not getting to go to India with you family. If you keep reliving those feelings and holding a grudge, you are going to continue to stay upset and unhappy. You need to work on forgiving them. And forgiving them does not mean it was okay to treat you that way, it means that you want to stop letting it bother you. It takes work to forgive people or situation that happen in our lives, but once you forgive and release the pain on anger, you will start feeling better yourself, and that is what we need. Is for you to feel better.

She was mostly worried about the side effects and how it may increase suicidal thoughts. Because of this, she wanted someone to watch over me until they can see a positive change in my behavior. My family ignores the fact that I am seeing a psychologist, which again makes me feel awful. They see me as someone who is old when I am only 20 years old.

What makes the situation worse is that my mother is 54 years old and has more energy than I do. I’m 5 ft and 106 pounds, and I do work out… but I feel too unhappy to get up and even look in the fridge or get out of my bed most of the time. I can tell that people talk about me because I have not been paying much attention to my physical appearance or even to anything. It’s almost as if I am not human…

I forgave my family a long time ago, but it just keeps replaying in my mind…
Did antidepressants work for you?

Yes, they work really good for me. Did from the first time I started taking them. I never had any problems with them like some people do. I am on a low dose 50 mg of Zoloft.

Keep working with your psychologist and maybe see a psychiatrist about trying medication. You are only 2oyrs old and your family is not always going to be your whole life. So you do what you can to get through this because one day you will look back and be thankful you made it through to a better life.

There is an old post somewhere around help where everyone posted why they were glad they did not commit suicide when they went through depression. I will try and look for it tomorrow because I have to get off here now.

Just keep telling yourself that you are worth fighting for. You can and will get control of your thoughts again.

Thank you, babacup. You have really helped me. I’ll contact my psychologist and see if an appointment may be scheduled to see a psychiatrist.

… There is actually something that I would like to ask. With your experience with depression, have you ever felt pressure specifically around the areas of your pre-frontal and temporal lobe?

Like headaches? Yes! I get migraines. My doctor had told me that the anti depressants would help, and it does, but I still get headaches just not as offten or severe.